sheâd recognized what they were.
Ash couldnât sense anything from Nicholas, but she recognized the same malevolence. A quick step backâ not fear, but survival instinct âbrought her up against the bed. Trapped. Escape would be easy, but now that sheâd touched the bed, her mind began its desperate search again, reaching for the connectionâ
Someoneâs been sleeping in my bed.
Had her memory been searching for him ? Obviously, heâd been lying thereâbut on some level, had she known exactly who had been in that bed before heâd appeared with his crossbow? Had she been reminded of something from Beforeâsomething about Nicholas St. Croix?
If she had a connection to him, then he must know her . Not Rachel, but Ash. That realization kept her in place, despite the urge to flee.
Nicholas stalked close, halting less than an armâs length away. He stood several inches taller than Ash; she had to tilt her face up to watch his eyes. Slowly, he examined her every feature. Did she look any different from Rachel? Ash waited, listening to the steady beat of his heart. Her own heart hammered, constructing unfamiliar emotions in her chest. Hope, trepidation? She couldnât distinguish them amid the racket of her pulse. Ash wished she knew what he felt, but his expression gave nothing away.
She had to try again. âWho am I?â
âWho else could you be but Rachel?â With a sudden, thin smile, he tugged a pale lock of hair forward over her shoulder, rubbing the long strands between his fingers as if considering their texture. âWho else but the woman I love?â
Love? No, that wasnât what sheâd tasted in that swelling burst of emotion before heâd closed himself away from her. Disappointment, grief, and rageâsheâd sensed all of those. But not love.
His head lowered, his gaze holding hers on the way down. Would he kiss her? Curious, Ash let him. Firm and cool, his lips settled against hers.
Emotion burst from him, blasting through the door heâd shutâa feeling that wasnât hot but bitter withering cold, and Ash recognized the hate behind it before he hid that from her, too. She should have moved then. The hate felt like a warning, and she disliked the cold, but when he opened his lips over hers, his taste was fascinatingâmint, because heâd readied for bed, and there was something else that was familiar, so familiar here. She knew the touch of his mouth, the heat that slipped through her like a warm drink when his tongue sought hers. So she remained still, searching for the connection sparked by the kiss and lurking in her ruined memory.
She didnât find it before Nicholas lifted his head. Ash wanted to follow him up to prolong the contact, but she rememberedâ donât break the Rules, respect their free will âand waited, panting, not needing the oxygen but relishing the sweep of air over her lips, wet from his kiss.
Sheâd felt all of this before. Sheâd feltâ
A cold prod against her throat. Ashâs eyes widenedâ this was surprise! âand she heard a click. Pain stabbed her neck. White-hot, it yanked her muscles taut and raced up behind her eyes.
Then, for the first time in three years, darkness fell over her mind, and she felt absolutely nothing at all.
CHAPTER 2
The moment Nicholas had spotted the womanâs pale hair, hope had shot through him. Rachel had become a Guardian.
Even though the Guardians had told him that Rachel hadnât been transformed into an angelic warrior, no one could explain to him why she wasnât one now. After sacrificing her life to save Nicholasâs, she should have been transformed into one of their kind. So despite the demonic symbols tattooed over the womanâs face and her claim that she wasnât Rachel, heâd hoped her sudden appearance meant the Guardians had lied to him.
Heâd hoped . . . until the feverish