head up on the memory she didnât want, a memory of a memory, her first memory and it was of regret and terrorâ
Burning cold, her body gone, sheâd heard screaming and sheâd been screaming but she didnât have to return to the cold, that endless frozen agony, because sheâd made a bargain and the dark figure said her name, Ashâand the rest of her ripped apart, was gone, gone
Her stomach heaved. Doubling over, Ash braced her hands against the edge of the bed. She sucked in air that her lungs didnât need, but the motion of her chest felt familiar. It felt right.
But why didnât she need air?
Someone had to know. Someone had to know who she was. What she was.
âRachel?â
The manâs voice came from behind her, full of shock and disbelief. Ash whipped around. Nicholas St. Croix stood at the doorway, holding a crossbow aimed at her heart.
Instinctively, Ash raised her hands to show him that she was unarmed. She didnât know if Nicholas had killed Rachel, but she wouldnât give him a reason to fire now. She doubted he would, anyway. Instead of aggression, she sensed faint hope in him, combined with ragged uncertainty.
He couldnât see her clearly in the dark, Ash realized, whereas she could see him perfectly. Shirtless, he wore only a pair of black trousers that hung low on his hipsâzipped, but not buttoned. He must have yanked them on when sheâd broken in. Had she woken him, or had he simply been lying in the bed?
Lying in wait.
As soon as Ash thought it, she couldnât shake that impression. Nicholas St. Croixâs photos suggested he was a dangerous man, hard and emotionlessâbut the most recent picture had been taken more than three years ago. Instead of cold elegance, he appeared pared down and roughened. His dark hair had been cut brutally short. A few daysâ worth of scruff shadowed his jaw, and his body . . .
Ashâs gaze fell to his chest. In the photos, heâd obviously been well acquainted with a gym. But the taut, wiry muscles on display hadnât come from a single hourâs workout followed by a rich manâs meal. His body reflected an obsession of some kind, one that ate away at him no matter how much he fed itâand Ash didnât think that obsession had anything to do with his looks.
Perhaps that obsession explained why heâd lain in wait at his motherâs house with a crossbow .
Ash didnât lower her hands. âIâm not her. But if you look at me, can you tell me who I am?â
His aim didnât waver as he flipped a switch on the wall. Light flooded the room. Ash blinked rapidly, adjusting to the glare. His eyes narrowed. Their icy blue focus shifted to the symbols tattooed over the left side of her face.
The warm hope sheâd sensed in him burst into a hot, swelling pressure. But even as she recognized the change, he began hiding it from her, somehow. The pressure didnât vanish, yet he closed his emotions away, as if shutting them behind a door.
Strange. No one had done that before. Everyone sheâd met in London kept their emotions wide open, and had no clue Ash could sense them.
âYouâre Rachel Boyle,â he said flatly.
âNo.â Disappointment touched her, swift and light, but it couldnât gain any traction and slid away. âI look like her, but thatâs not my name.â
âOh?â
Now his voice softened, and though he lowered his crossbow, Ashâs wariness sharpened. He approached her on silent feet, and his movements reminded her of the predators sheâd seenânot the agile cheetah or the majestic, powerful lion. Not any animal driven by hunger or a need to protect its territory, but the human variety driven by deadly intent. Sheâd seen many of them prowling the dark London streets, had sensed the malevolence theyâd felt toward others. Often, they hid it behind bland pleasantries and smiles, but