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I thought I saw someone I knew but after getting a good look I'm not so sure. Should we have another drink?”
    “Sure, another red wine?”
    “Yes, absolutely.” I laughed and put my hand on his thigh. If Mark did see me and was now watching, I wanted him to know that I was on a date. 
    The next fifteen minutes were excruciating. I could feel my back getting hot, like someone was burning a hole in it.
    I wanted to turn and look to see what was going on, but I didn’t. I wouldn’t give him that satisfaction of knowing how much it bothered me to see him there with his wife. I know I wouldn’t be able to hide the hurt on my face if I locked eyes with him.
    I made a good show of flirting with Robert. I touched him, I laughed a lot, and I made constant eye contact with him and leaned in close when we talked. But it was no use. I was feeling empty and sad inside.  I felt a lump in my throat and knew that tears would surely follow. I excused myself to the ladies’ room to pull myself together.
    I stared at myself in the mirror feeling really upset. I went through the usual process when something like this happens, meaning I stared at myself asking, “Why is he not with me? What’s wrong with me?” I turned away from the mirror and decided I should end my blind date and go home. I was not in any place to continue faking it.
    I stepped out of the ladies’ room and ran straight into Mark. I looked up at him and struggled to hide my surprise and sadness. I don’t think I was successful. He looked down at me with those big eyes and said, “Who is that man?”
    “My date.” I said smugly.
    “I don’t like it.”
    “I don’t care what you think. You’re married. Now if you’ll excuse me, I need to get back to him.”
    I tried to step around him, but he cut me off. I moved to the other side and he cut me off again. I was his prisoner. I looked up at him. He came closer and pinned me against the wall.  My knees went weak. This is exactly what I wanted from him, but the fact that it was happening seemed unreal.
    I moaned in response. I couldn’t help myself. He pressed his mouth on mine and kissed me. It was a deep possessive kiss. He moved his hand to my waist and pulled me against him. I tilted my head back, opening myself up to surrendering to his kiss.  His other hand cupped my bottom as he squeezed and massaged it. I almost forgot we were in a public space and that anyone could walk into the hallway including his wife. I pushed him away an inch or two.
    “We can’t do this,” I said.
    Then we were interrupted.
    “Latoya?” I heard in a stern and confused voice.
    I turned to see Robert in hallway.
     

CHAPTER 5 - Accidents
     
     
    I was mortified. I had completely forgotten that I was on a date. I immediately felt like a horrible bitch.
    “Robert,” I blurted out.  I looked at Mark and then back at Robert who looked at us both and understood the situation and shook his head at me. Then he walked out. I was glad that he didn’t make a scene, but I was angry that Mark had chased my date away. I narrowed my eyes at Mark and walked away. I grabbed a cab outside and went home. I didn’t sleep at all. I had crossed the line with one of my best friends into romantic territory and there was no going back. I felt sick to my stomach.  Not only had I lost any chance of a real romance with Mark, but I also had lost him as a friend.
    Over the next two weeks, I didn’t see him at all. I made it a point to switch shifts at work when I could to avoid working with him. I found myself applying for transfers to hospitals in other cities. I would take anything at this point. I had hoped not to have to uproot my life in Atlanta and get transferred to another local hospital, but being in the same city didn’t seem far enough after the incident in the bar. I could still run into him.
    Imagining myself in another city gave me a sense of relief and I was starting to look forward to it. That was until something happened