her credit card through the pumpâs card reader, but he caught only a flash of her face. A square chin, tennis-blond hair. He thought of Weather, the woman heâd almost marriedâshould have married, a woman he still thought aboutâbut this wasnât Weather. Weather was smaller, and heâd know her a mile away, whether her back was turned or not.
The pump handle jumped under his hand, and clanked. Filled up. He turned off the pump and walked over to the station, got a bottle of diet Coke out of a cooler, and pushed a twenty and a ten through the cash window. The attendant, barely able to tear himself away from the game, sullenly made change one-handed. A college algebra book sat on the counter next to him.
âYou go to St. Thomas?â Lucas asked.
âYeah.â
âBad hours.â
âLife sucks and then you die,â the kid said. He didnât smile; he seemed to mean it. His eyes flicked past Lucasâs shoulder and a light soprano voice asked, âLucas? Is that you?â
He turned, but he didnât have to to know who it was. Everything came back with the voice. âCatrin,â he said, and turned.
She was smiling, and the smile nearly knocked him off his feet. She was forty-four, ten pounds heavier than in college, a little rounder in the face, but with that fine Welsh skin and wild reddish-blond hair. The last time heâd seen her . . .
âMust be twenty-five years,â she said. She reached out and took his hand, then looked at the attendant and said, âI paid outside.â
They stepped toward the door, then outside, and Catrin said, âIâve seen you on television.â
Lucas was trying to recover, but recovery was difficult. The last time heâd seen her . . . âWhat, uh, whatâre you doing? Now?â
âI live down in Lake City,â she said. âYou know, on Lake Pepin . . .â
âMarried with kids?â
She grinned at him. âOf course. To a doctor, a family practitioner. Two kids, one of each. James is a sophomore at St. Olaf; Mariaâs a senior in high school.â
âIâve got one, a daughter,â Lucas said. âStill in elementary school. Her mother and I . . . arenât together anymore.â Never married; no need to make a point of it. A thought occurred to him, and he looked at his watch. âItâs not four oâclock yet. What are you doing out here?â
âA friend died this morning,â she said. Her smile had gone wistful; he thought, for a moment, that she might break down. âI knew she was going. Tonight. I sort of dressed up for it.â
âJesus.â
âIt was not good. Lung cancer,â she said. âShe never quit smoking. Iâm just so, just so . . .â
He patted her on the back. âYeah.â
âAnd where are you going? I donât remember you as an early riser.â
âGot a murder,â he said. He felt that he was staring at her, and that she knew it and was amused. Back when, sheâd know exactly what she did to him. The effect, he thought, must have been wired in, because it hadnât changed in twenty-five years.
âAh.â
âYou know the model, Alieâe Maison?â
Her hand went to her mouth in astonishment. âShe was murdered?â
âStrangled.â
âOh, my God. Here?â
âMinneapolis.â
Catrin looked around the empty gas station pad. âYouâre not exactly rushing to the scene of the crime.â
âFive minutes ainât gonna make any difference,â Lucas said. âSheâs dead.â
She seemed to step back, though she hadnât moved. She looked up and said, âYou always had a harsh line in you. The cold breath of reality.â
And sheâd just seen a friend die, Lucas thought. âIâm sorry, I didnât mean . . .â
âNo, thatâs okay. Thatâs just . . . Lucas.â She smiled again,