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backed up against the wall of the club when Shona, Nat and Trent burst through the door.
    ‘You two sort it out for God’s sake!’ Shona barked at us before disappearing. Dylan went rushing after her. And me? I went home.
     
3rd June
    I did something either really stupid or incredibly brave today, depending on your politics. I went and spoke to Mia.
    It took me ages to find her but eventually I tracked her down to the library basement, where you can smoke without setting off any alarms.
    Normally Mia’s the definition of brazen but she seemed quite taken aback when she saw me padding towards her through the stacks.
    ‘You look like shit,’ she said, but it lacked the usual bite.
    ‘I need to talk to you about Dylan,’ I said, sticking to what I rehearsed. ‘I saw you kissing a few weeks ago and I want to know what’s going on.’
    She nibbled on a fingernail while I folded my arms and waited for a response. ‘Have you asked him?’ she said eventually.
    I shrugged. ‘He said
you
were kissing
him
. Didn’t look like that to me.’
    She gave me one of those cat-like smiles of hers that make me want to punch her. And she had on this completely ridiculous T-shirt that she’d slashed so it would look punk but really I think she just wanted people to look at her tits.
    ‘Me and Dylan go way back,’ she said. But see, normally with Mia she spurts out all this evil crap right off the bat and this time she wasn’t. She was actually taking time to engage her brain cells before she opened her mouth.
    ‘I know but I’m not talking about way back, I’m talking about a few weeks ago.’ I was being so calm. I couldn’t begin to imagine why. ‘You know we’ve split up?’
    Mia’s head shot up from where it had been contemplating the end of her cigarette. ‘Because of me?’
    ‘Well, yeah…’ I perched on the edge of the table. ‘It’s kinda hard to carry on seeing someone once they’ve kissed their ex-girlfriend.’
    ‘Oh, but I was never his ex-anything,’ Mia protested. ‘It was just to make Paul jealous…’
    And then she did something that I never expected her to do in front of me. She burst into tears.
    It wasn’t to make me feel sorry for her, it was proper crying. With snot and howling and her hands over her eyes. I found a tissue in the bottom of my bag
and then I put my arms around he
r
!
    ‘Paul… love him… can’t bear it,’ was about all the sense I managed to get out of her for a while.
    But finally she stopped crying and was at the stage where you scrub at your face with a ratty tissue and hiccup gently. ‘I know you think I’m the biggest bitch in the world,’ she spluttered. ‘But I love Paul, I really love him and I can’t stand to see him with
her
and he’s happy and it’s not because of me.’
    ‘Oh Mia,’ I said sadly, ‘I’m sorry but you and Paul, it was so messed to begin with, it couldn’t have lasted.’
    Well that set her off again and my shoulder was soggy with her tears. ‘The thing with the letters, I was just being a crazy person. And then Dylan wanted to meet and I thought he was going to yell at me but he was so nice about it. You know? When he’s being sweet and understanding?’
    I nodded and tried to swallow the planet-sized lump that had suddenly lodged itself in my throat.
    ‘And it wasn’t a “get it on” kiss, I just felt so lonely and he was there and it was a… a … 
friendly
kiss and it was my idea, not his. I swear, Edie! You and me, we’re not mates, but I never thought you and Dylan would break up over this. I thought you’d have sorted it out.’
    But we hadn’t. And we couldn’t. So I started crying and getting snot on Mia’s shoulder. Then she started crying again. It was a regular weepfest.
    Sometimes people that you barely know, barely even like, are the ones that get you. And for ten minutes me and Mia were soulmates. She was angsting about Paul and my heart had broken over Dylan and we were entirely on the same abandoned