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way I could. 
    “Oh. Well, I wish I could have.  I am sure it was beautiful.”
    He looks at me and gives me a confused look, but doesn’t press the issue any further.
    “Lil, I know you don’t remember.  I have been told to let you remember things on your own. To not overload you with too much, we don’t want your body under any kind of stress.  So, please understand that you have nothing to worry about when I tell you this next thing okay? I don’t want you to worry as we will protect you.  Nothing will happen to you, do you understand?”
    I don’t think I want to know where this is going. I also don’t think he is going to stop.  I give my head a slight nod, giving Park the go ahead causing my heart rate to increase visibly on the monitor. He glances at it but I put my hand on his arm. I want this over with.
    “Okay, so you are right that Gessati is dead.  However, it seems he isn’t the only one we need to worry about.  I know you won’t understand what I am going to say, since you don’t remember but it’s because you would trust him that I need to tell you.  I need you to understand that you cannot trust Lucas.  He was working with Gessati the whole time and now has Mia.”
    I feel as though the breath has been taken straight out of me.  I remember—I remember that Lucas is not the man we thought he was.  I can’t tell Parker that though.  However, what I failed to remember and I hate myself for even more is about Mia.  I forgot she was there, hell I forgot there even was a Mia.  How? I don’t know. 
    “Okay, so Lucas isn’t who I remember? And who is Mia?”
    “Oh sorry Lil.  Yes, Luke isn’t someone you can trust and as far as Mia, don’t worry about her right now, okay? Why don’t you rest a bit?”
    I thought he would tell me more but am kind of happy he doesn’t. I can tell that with what little bit he has talked about Mia, he is worried about her.  I know his tells just as he knows mine.  As much as I want to ask, I don’t.  I am afraid to know how this must be affecting Wesson and feel so much worse knowing that not only am I hurting him but he must be devastated to know that Mia is alive, and yet now kidnapped and taken from him again.
    Thinking about all of this starts to drain me and I now know more than ever that this needs to come to an end.  Lucas is no longer hurting Parker and me, now he is hurting the man I love in more ways than one and I just can’t sit back and watch. I finally agree to rest like Parker suggested and just before I finish scooting down in the hospital bed, my door opens and closes. 
    My breath catches when I look up to see him.  That man will never stop taking my breath away.  He looks at me as soon as he walks in and I know he notices that my breathing changed when we made eye contact.  His eyes still hold love for me but I see the sadness that I put there as well.  I break eye contact with him first before I do something I will regret. I may not have thought through how tough it would be for me to pretend I don’t remember.  My body calls to him; my soul needs to be connected to his. With us separated, there is no chance for either of us to be considered whole. I know all of this but it doesn't change my decision.
    I finish laying down the rest of the way, turning away from where he stands. I know if I look, I’ll see the heartache and longing that I put there, while he prays I remember the love we shared. This path I have put us on will be a rough one, but one that I have to go through for me, for us.  I do not know if I will be as strong as I can if I spend any long periods of time around him, so I do my best to ignore his pull in the room and I let the medicine relax me while I try to sleep.
     
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    WESSON
     
    I may be exhausted; I may not have much going for me at the moment and  I may not have a plan to get us through the next adventure life is throwing at us,  however, I do have hope.  I have hope that even though