Who I Became (Who I Was Book 2) Read Online Free PDF

she is unable to remember everything that we have shared, even though her brain is continuing to shield her from the good parts we shared so that it can help her survive the bad, and even though all of that fucking sucks, all of that is something I can now handle after watching her body respond to me entering the room. I was able to watch as her eyes dilated when our eyes met. I was able to watch as her breathing became heavier as we were unable to break our gaze.  Her mind may not remember but deep down in that beautiful heart of hers, I have taken hold and refuse to let go.  She will remember and until then I will do my best to just make her fall in love with me again. 
    I quietly go and sit on the chair next to Parker.  Neither of us talk while we sit here watching her fall asleep.  I wait until I can see her breathing even out before speaking. I don’t want anything else to stress her out more; I can’t risk her not remembering any longer than necessary. 
    “Any change?” I ask just above a whisper.
    “No. I told her something though, something from before.” I whip around looking at him, my eyes wide.
    “No, I haven’t told her anything about you. I told her she can’t trust Luke.”
    “Oh, of course.” I am glad he told her that. I would hate for Lucas to weasel in here and get to her. However, I can’t hide the disappointment in my voice.
    “She will remember.”
    “So I keep being told.”
    We sit for a bit longer in quiet and then I remember my conversation with Vanessa. Parker and I need to have a plan. I know he cares for Mia so I know he will be willing to help me get to her and save her. I also know he wants this to be over with Lucas. I think we can make this a win- win.
    “Hey Park?”
    He looks over and nods saying he is listening.
    “I was hanging around after the meeting, honestly just working up the courage to come back in here.  While I was waiting, Vanessa came in.  She said she overheard Chief talking and the whole “put us all in protection” is just to get us out of the way.  She said that they don’t care if they get Mia out alive.”
    I let that settle because over the past two weeks I have come to know certain things about Parker.  He is calculated.  He thinks things through and then thinks them through again.  He doesn’t take anything lightly and is not one to jump the gun.  He is annoyingly slow at making decisions sometimes, but when he does, they are always the correct ones.  He will have a plan, one that I know that with what information I gave him, I will be able to stand behind him one-hundred percent.  I have grown to respect him, which is good since I plan on being in Lillian’s life.  I think that Parker and I make a good team.  I am hot headed and quick to do; he slows me down before stupid mistakes can be made. Together, we will save our little circle and in the end win.
    I just sit back and wait, meanwhile I notice that Lillian turned over and is now facing us. I also notice that she is in no way asleep as I just locked eyes with hers. My heart stops for a second, thinking about what she must have just heard, worried about how it will affect her and her healing.  However, after she is surprised that I notice her awake, I see some determination in her eyes.  I am hoping she is determined to remember me.
    I continue to let her examine me, she is watching me and studying me.  Parker hasn’t noticed she is awake but I don’t think I care if she hears.  Maybe something will trigger what she isn’t remembering. 
    “We must finish this.”  That is all he says on the matter before getting up and walking out the door.  I should follow him and make sure he doesn’t go do anything that could ruin this for us.  I know what he is thinking.  He is thinking the same thing that I thought when I was told everything. We are going to leave, we are going to take everyone and leave and then we are going to finish this once and for all.
    “Where did