return.â
âI couldnâtââ
âThe next year, when my first engagement was broken and my heart was shattered, I asked you to come home and help me drown my sorrows.â
âI wasnât ableââ
âAnd two years later, I asked you to come to my wedding and you couldnât be bothered.â
âBut that was yet another wedding that didnât take place.â
âIt didnât take place at the last possible moment. I was very nearly left standing at the altar.â He shook his head in a mournful manner. âI was devastated, you know. I could have used the support or, at the very least, the comforting shoulder of the man I consider my brotherâthe man who is my dearest friend. But, no, you couldnât be bothered.â
âCircumstances were suchââ
âAnd two years after that, when you had at last amassed the fortune you had worked so hard for, when you were no longer penniless with no prospectsââ
âWin.â A warning sounded in Grayâs voice.
His cousin continued mercilessly. âWhen she was widowed and the opportunity came to throw it in her faceââ
âWin!â
âYou didnât come home then either.â Win heaved a resigned sigh. âIf that couldnât lure you home, I had no idea what would.â He sipped his brandy. âIâm quite displeased with myself that I didnât think of this years ago. Father dying.â He chuckled. âHeâs entirely too obstinate to die and leave everything in my hands, capable though they may be.â
âI had every intention of returning to England sometime soon.â
âI know.â
Grayâs brow furrowed. âWhat do you mean?â
âThereâs been a tone in your letters these last two years and a vague hint in the year before that. You might not even be aware of it. But I know you as wellâno, better than you know yourself.â
âI still have no idea what you are trying to say.â
âYou know exactly what I am trying to say, but as this talk is eleven years in coming . . . eleven years, Gray.â Win shook his head, accusation shaded his eyes.
Gray stared. âI . . . apologize?â
âAs well you should.â Win got to his feet and circled his cousin. âYou left, letting Mother and Father believe you needed to make your fortune on your own because of some sort of obligation to your parents or yourself, that never was entirely clear, although it did sound good.â
âThatâs exactly why I left,â Gray said staunchly.
âIs it? You knew full well Fatherâs plan was to put you in charge of the familyâs business interests, whereas I would handle the estates and properties. I suspect he thought together, as a family, we could, I donât know, rule the world or something a step below that.â
âYes, wellââ
âIt wasnât a misplaced sense of obligation on his part, and it certainly wasnât charity, and you know that as well.â
âI suppose, butââ
âBut, instead, you turned your back on your family and allowed a woman who had discarded you for someone with a fortune and title to influence how you lived your life.â
Gray bristled. âIt wasnâtââ
âWasnât it?â Winâs eyes narrowed. âIf I recall correctly, Camille Channing, now Lady Lydingham, the woman you loved, threw you over to marry a much older man with wealth and position. A man who had what you did not. Am I accurate thus far?â
âIn a manner of speakingââ
âAt very nearly the same time, you, who had always seemed a most sensible sort, got it into your head to flee the country and go off and seek your fortune, armed with little more than a modest loan from Father. Again, am I correct?â
Gray nodded. âGo on.â
âAnd then, when she was widowed and you had made
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