a great deal of money, indeed, at that point, you could have been considered almost unseemly wealthyââ
âI donât know thatââ
âNonetheless . . .â Win continued to circle Gray, like a beast of prey moving in for the kill. It was most annoying. âYou still refused to come home. Because . . .â
Gray clenched his teeth. âBecause?â
âBecause it wasnât enough.â Triumph sounded in Winâs voice. âYou needed to prove to her not only were you as good as the man she chose, you were better. No title, perhaps, but more money. And as she and her sisters have always been rather mercenary in that regard, returning once your fortune was greater would be a lovely triumph over the woman who broke your heart.â
Gray could scarcely deny it. âI admit, that might have been a factor of motivationââ
âAha! I knew it.â Win raised his glass. âNow you can throw your success in her face.â
âOnce perhaps, but now . . .â Gray shook his head. âItâs simply not worth the effort.â
â âNot worth the effortâ? Good Lord.â Win stared. âWhen did you become so noble?â
âIâm not noble.â He sipped his brandy thoughtfully. âItâsheâis of no consequence anymore. The past is the past, over and done with. It cannot be changed and I see no need to dwell on it. I put CamilleâLady Lydinghamâbehind me longer ago than I can remember. As I said, proving something to her now is simply not worth my time.â
âOh, bravo, Gray. Excellent speech.â Win raised his glass in a salute. âMost impressive. I donât believe a word of it, of course, but still, it is impressive.â
âIt scarcely matters whether you believe it or not.â Gray shrugged. âI have no interest in anything regarding Lady Lydinghamâaside, perhaps, from the friendship we once shared.â
âI see.â Win sipped his brandy and considered his cousin thoughtfully. âYou do realize she remains a widow and has not remarried, as I might have mentioned in my letters?â
âIndeed, you have.â Gray sipped his drink. âWith remarkable frequency.â
âAnd you donât care?â
âNot a bit.â
âThen were I to add, she is residing at her motherâs house for Christmas this year, no more than a thirty-minute ride from here, it would make no difference to you?â
âNone whatsoever.â
âAnd if you were to come across her unexpectedly on the road, your heart would not beat faster like a trapped bird fluttering in your chest?â
âA trapped bird?â Gray laughed. âGood God, man, what has come over you?â
âI was trying to be poetical,â Win said in a lofty manner. âI have the heart of a poet, you know.â
âYou do not.â
âPerhaps not.â Win shrugged. âItâs of no consequence at the moment, as it is not my heart we are discussing but yours.â
âWin.â Gray leaned forward and met his cousinâs gaze directly. âAdmittedly, I once offered my heart to Camille Channing. And, yes, that did indeed contribute to my desire to make my way in the world, which I have done in a most successful manner. In that respect, she was the means to an end. Perhaps once, she was indeed the end, but no longer. I have no lingering feelings for her whatsoever, save those that one old friend has for another.â
âThen you would make no effort to avoid her?â
âI donât see why I would.â
âAnd were you to meet her againââ
â âUnexpectedly on the roadâ?â Gray grinned.
âOr wherever,â Win continued, âyou would treat her asââ
âAs one does any neighbor one has known for much of oneâs life, as the friends we once were,â Gray said firmly. âWith polite
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