was still silent. Kullen sighed, attempting another approach. He sat down. âAll right, Iâll fill in the blanks. Stop me if Iâm wrong. Elizabethâs son is the boyâs father.â
He paused a moment for her to contradict him, even though he was certain that, given the circumstances, she couldnât. Lilli sat down, but the uncomfortable silence continued.
âAnd now, out of the blue,â Kullen went on, âhe and his mother want custody of the boy.â
Lilli looked down at her hands. âNot âhe,â just his mother,â she corrected woodenly.
Kullen went with the tide. âOkay, so the boyâs father doesnât want himââ
âHis father didnât want him,â she said tersely, changing the tense that heâd used.
Kullen paused. âDid something happen to make Dalton change his mind?â
âNo,â Lilli answered. Her voice sounded hollow to her own ears, stripped of emotion. It was the only way, even after all this time, that she could bring herself to talk about the man who had so savagely changed her life. âHeâs dead.â
The moment she mentioned Daltonâs death, Kullen vaguely recalled hearing a sound bite on the news one evening summarizing Erik Daltonâs shallow life. If he remembered correctly, that was about six months ago. Thinking, he tried to summon up the details of the incident.
âIt was a skiing accident, wasnât it?â he asked.
Lilli shook her head. âBoating,â she corrected, then added, âFrom what I heard, he liked people thinking of him as some kind of a daredevil.â She used the impersonal pronoun he, unable to make herself even say Erik Daltonâs name.
Kullen continued studying her. There was so much she wasnât saying, he thought. âAnd that daredevil image didnât include being a father,â he guessed.
Lilli could feel hateful, disparaging words rising to her lips. Sheâd never hated anyone, but she hated Erik Dalton with the last fiber of her being. But she had always been a truthful person and, in all fairness, in this particular situation Dalton didnât technically deserve to be called a self-centered scum.
She shrugged, trying to seem indifferent. âI never gave him the chance to turn that role down.â
Damn it, Lilli, I loved you. I would have put the world at your feet if youâd married me. Was this why you left? To run into this soulless jerkâs Armani-covered arms?
Kullen struggled to keep the anger out of his voice but he couldnât help asking, âExactly what was it that you did give him?â
Here come the tears again, she thought, fighting to will them back. Despite her mental pep talk to the contrary, she felt terribly vulnerable and exposed. She didnât know why she felt that way, but she did.
Maybe it had to do with seeing Kullen after all these years.
Even so, Lilli absolutely refused to allow herself to cry, refused to come across as some helpless little waif, the hapless victim of a spoiled, overly privileged, rich narcissist who thought he was entitled to everything and anything he wanted.
âA note,â she replied. âI wrote him a note when Jonathan was born, telling him that I thought he had a right to know that he had a son. I also told him that I didnât want anything from him. I intended to raise Jonathan on my own.â
She couldnât read Kullenâs expression and waited for him to say something.
When he finally spoke, it wasnât what she expected to hear. âThat was rather foolish, donât you think?â he asked. âBy having nothing to do with Dalton, you were denying your son a life of privilege.â
His assumption made her angry. âNo,â she contradicted firmly, âI was protecting my son and giving him a life filled with love.â She fisted her hands in her lap.âI want Jonathan to be someone, to make something of