toward him, heâs looking down, like heâs given up on finding contrails or anything else in the sky. âBut a museumâs nice, right?â I say. âSo lots of folks can see it?â
Paul stands up and shakes out his pants and stretches his arms above his head, like heâs just waking up. âHa,â he says, in this really sarcastic way. âYou sound just like my mom. Iâm sure both of you mean well, but a museum means itâs history. Over and done with,â he says. âThe end of curiosity and exploration and discovery, not only for guys like me who thought weâd hitch a ride to the International Space Station someday, but for everyone. I mean, I guess theyâll keep sending unmanned spacecraft out thereâyâknow, rovers and stuffâbut sometimes youâve gotta go somewhere in person to understand it, right? You canât just plant yourself in a place like Loomer for the rest of your life and expect to learn anything.â
And right then Paul Dobbs turns around and walks straight up the cellar steps, across the sidewalk, and out past the big cedar elm. He keeps walking through the hotpaved parking lot of Loomer Second Baptist Church and turns left onto Allen Avenue. He doesnât look back, not once, and he doesnât look like he plans to stay planted anywhere.
Chapter Five
S o hereâs when I know for certain that things with Mama have gone all kinds of wrong. Weâre sitting at Snow Drugstore, sipping our after-church shakes, and Donnetta Snow steps over from the pharmacy counter to say hi.
âMax, Ivy,â she says. âBest chocolate shakes this side of Houston?â
âWell, hello, Donnetta,â says Daddy. âGood to see you. And yep, theyâre as good as ever. My little Ivy-girl was suffering a bit of heatstroke after church, and a chocolate shake seems to be the cure-all!â Daddy winks at me, and Donnetta smiles her famous Donnetta Snow smile. I sip my shake and feel relieved Iâve been forgiven for ducking out of church. Daddy hardly seemed to mind at all, which makes me think heâs been feeling sorrier for me than heâs let on.
âAw, Iâm glad, honey,â Donnetta says, and she ruffles my hair so that my skin tingles. In a good way.
âNow, Max,â she says, âIâve been meaning to call you to ask what you want me to do with Dianaâs prescriptions. She hasnât picked them up, and I understand sheâs out of town, but if my calculations are correct, sheâs run out of two of them. Are you sending things to her?â
I suck up a quick, nervous straw full of ice cream, and it goes straightaway to my brain and gives me a freeze headache. So much for a milk shake being a cure-all.
Mama needs her pills. She always has. She has high blood pressure from her daddy and something she calls âswell fingerâ from her mama, and she never, ever misses a single day of her pills. But then sheâs never missed any of my school events before this yearâs end-of-year ceremony either.
âWell, that,â says Daddy, âis a very good question, Donnetta.â
And then he looks at me like I might know what to do about Mama or her pills or Donnetta Snow. He looks at me like heâs got no idea what to do about any of it himself. He looks at me like heâs afraid. Afraid that Mamaâs not of her right mind. Or that Hallelujah Dave isnât. Or that we may never get Mama back home with us in Loomer, Texas, where she belongs.
And I decide right then and there that thereâs hardlya thing worse in the world than seeing your own daddy look that afraid.
In the car Daddy says nothing. He buckles up and sets the bag with Mamaâs pills on the seat between us, and he drives. His lips are tight and white again, and I can tell he doesnât want to talk, but I do. So I say, âDaddy, Mama thinks all the best conversations happen in the