English papers, and if you donât follow it, you flunk straight out, no matter who you pray to.â
I close my eyes and feel hot dots of sun, filtered through the leaves of the giant cedar elm, prick the skin on my face. My head starts to spin a little, and I realize I wasnât fibbing. I really donât feel well at all.
âOkay,â I say as I open my eyes back up gently. âIâm sorry youâre angry about the rules in both church and school, but Iâve got a headache, and I am not in the mood for a lecture. And by the way, I think Pastor Louâs God is the same God who looks after all of us.â
I know itâs a little hypocritical for me to be defending Pastor Lou right now, but the way Paul talks, itâs like he knows better than all of us, including God. Which is what Daddy would call âhigh-and-mighty.â
âAnyway,â I say, âif youâre so sure weâre going straight to hell for sitting out back during service, what are you doing here instead of siting inside with your family in the front few rows?â
âNope, youâve got it wrong. I donât think weâre going to hell. Iâm just saying Pastor Lou will think weâre going to hell. Hereâs a little news flash, Ivy. There is no hell, unless you count Loomer, Texas, in the summertime. And thereâs no heaven unless you mean the one Neil Armstrong and the boys got to fly through on their way to the moon. You can sit out here and try to get your prayers heard if you want, but Iâm just killing time and looking for contrails.â
I glance at Paul again. Heâs leaning back on his elbows, shirtsleeves rolled up, head tilted toward the sky.
âI donât know what youâre talking about,â I say. âI donât see a thing up there, not a cricket or a crow. Maybe Godâs hiding the contrails from you since you basically just said he doesnât exist, which Iâm pretty sure is sacrilegious, especially if youâre on church property when you say it.â
âDo yâknow,â says Paul, âthat later this summer, one of the space shuttles is gonna fly over Loomer? Weâll probably be able to see it from right here on these steps if we want to.â
Paul can apparently change subjects just as quick as Daddy.
âThe real space shuttle? Doesnât the space shuttle goup? Into space? Why would anyone fly a rocket ship over Loomer?â
And hereâs where I should be getting the nervous willies, because church will be letting out soon and I am gonna have to explain myself. And explaining may well entail lying, which isnât exactly recommended at Second Baptist. Plus, I seem to be stuck in the middle of a conversation with one of the top eggheads in school, and no good can come of that, thatâs for sure.
I close my eyes and feel the sun prick my skin again.
âWell, first off, yâknow itâs not a rocket ship, right?â says Paul.
My eyes slide back open, and I turn to look at him. Here we go with the science.
âItâs a spacecraft,â he says. âAnd thereâs actually more than one of them, even though we call them all âthe space shuttle.ââ Paul does finger quotes around the words âthe space shuttleâ as he speaks.
âBut, yeah. Other than that, youâre right. It should be going up to where itâs built to goâspace. Instead, the politicians have decided that weâre done with all that, no more space shuttle. Before most of us even got a chance to be a part of the whole deal. So theyâre strapping one of âem onto an airplane and flying it to Los Angeles andputtinâ it up in a museum forever and ever. Amen, as yâall would say.â
âOh. Well, thatâs too bad,â I answer, because I hear an ache in Paulâs voice that makes me feel a little sorry, even though Iâm not totally sure why. When I turn
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