give one
a fighting chance against mosquitoes. Frogs croaked
in the dense undergrowth lining the riverbank. Cicadas
sang from the low-hanging, moss-strewn
branches of the sheltering live oak trees.
"Nice out here," Hammond remarked.
"Hmm. I'm surprised no one else has discovered
it."
"I reserved it so we could have it all to ourselves."
She laughed. They had laughed a lot in the last
couple hours while sampling the high-caloric fares of
the food vendors and walking aimlessly from booth
to booth. They had admired home-canned peaches
and string beans, got a lesson on the latest in workout
equipment, and tried out the cushioned seats of high-tech
tractors. He had won a miniature teddy bear for
her at a baseball toss. She had declined to try on a
wig, although the saleswoman had been very persuasive.
They had taken a ride on the Ferris wheel. When
their car stopped at the summit and swayed precariously,
Hammond had felt downright giddy. It was one
of the most carefree moments he could remember
since . . .
He couldn't remember a more carefree moment.
The tethers that kept him grounded so securely-- people, work, obligations--seemed to have been
snipped. For a few minutes he had been floating free.
He had felt free to enjoy the thrill of being suspended
high above the fairgrounds. Free to enjoy a lightheartedness
he rarely experienced anymore. Free to
enjoy the company of a woman he had met less than
two hours ago.
Spontaneously he turned to her now and asked, "Are you married?"
She laughed and ducked her head even as she
shook it. "So much for subtlety."
"Subtlety wasn't doing it for me."
"No, I'm not married. Are you?"
"No." Then, "Whew! I'm glad we got that clarified."
Raising her head, she looked across at him, smiling.
"So am I."
Then they stopped smiling and just looked at each
other. The stare stretched into seconds, then moments,
long, still, quiet moments on the outside, but
clamorous where emotions were housed.
For Hammond it was one of those once-in a lifetime if you're-lucky
moments. The kind that even
the most talented movie directors and actors can't
quite capture on film. The kind of connecting moment
that poets and songwriters try to describe in
their compositions, but never quite nail. Up till now,
Hammond had been under the misconception that
they'd done a fair job of it. Only now did he realize
how miserably they had failed.
How could one, anyone, describe the instant when
it all comes together? How to describe that burst of
clarity when one knows that his life has only just now
begun, that everything that's happened before was rot
compared to this, and that nothing will ever be the
same again? The elusive answers to all the questions
ceased to matter, and he realized that the only truth he
really needed to know was right here, right now. This
moment.
He had never felt like this in his life.
Nobody had ever felt like this.
He was still rocking on the top car of the Ferris
wheel and he never wanted to come down.
Just as he said, "Will you dance with me again?"
she said, "I really need to go."
"Go?" "Dance?"
They spoke at the same time again, but Hammond
overrode her. "Dance with me again. I wasn't in top
form last time, what with the Marine Corps watching
my every step."
She turned her head and looked in the direction of
the parking lot on the far side of the fairgrounds.
He didn't want to press her. Any attempt at coercion
probably would send her running. But he couldn't let
her go. Not yet. "Please?"
Her expression full of uncertainty, she looked back
at him, then gave him a small smile. "All right. One
dance."
They stood up. She started for the steps, but he
reached for her hand and brought her around.
"What's wrong with here?"
She pulled in a breath, released it slowly, shakily.
"Nothing, I guess."
He hadn't touched her since their last dance, short
of placing his hand lightly on the small of her back to
guide her around a