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think? They won’t take
us seriously now.”
    I
was mortified.
    But
Drew just slowly pulled away and flashed me his signature cocky grin. “Oh, I
forgot,” he said charmingly. “You see, Summer, when it comes to you, I can’t
even think straight.” He grabbed my hand and reached into the car for my purse,
handed it to me, then started leading the way into the steel and glass building
taking up the entire block.
    “Aren’t
we going to go somewhere first, freshen up, change?” I asked while walking with
him.
    “Nope,”
Drew said as we walked into the impressive lobby with a large waterfall marble
sculpture in the center, and headed into an elevator. “I’m as refreshed as I
can be…thanks to you,” he smirked. When the elevator door closed, he stopped
smiling, and his face scrunched up in frustration. “I don’t think I can take
any more of it…being alone with you without wanting to go further. This…,” he said,
straightening his white polo shirt and his jeans and indicating the building,
“is the distraction I need.  Because unless you’re willing to go further with
me, Summer, I’m having a tough time holding back.”
    Hi
eyes burned into mine, and I knew he was dead serious.
    “How
many girls have you had sex with since you told me how you feel about me last
summer?” I had to know. Was it just pure sex for him or a lot more? Did we have
anything more than this lust we both feel for each other? I knew I lusted after
him…my body always respond to him no matter what I was feeling or what my
situation, but did we have more than that?  Like what I have with Nat?
    Drew
looked uncomfortable as he shifted his feet. “You know Summer how we weren’t
together…how I feel about sex…it doesn’t mean anything to me.”
    “Oh?”
I couldn’t help feeling a little disappointed. So having sex with me didn’t
mean anything to him?
    Drew
didn’t answer, but ran his fingers through his hair. I took his silence to mean
that he had slept with a few girls since he told me he loved me last summer. My
heart dropped. I felt as though a rug had been pulled out from under me, but
then again…what right did I have to be jealous?  I wasn’t with him. I still
wasn’t with him.
    “That’s
the thing, Drew,” I said shakily, trying to control my emotions. “With Nat, I
never had any doubts where I stood with him…once he told me how he felt about
me…I felt secure in knowing he meant it.”
    “Summer,”
Drew said urgently. “It’s not that I didn’t mean it.  It’s not that I have or
haven’t slept with anyone since letting you know how I feel about you.  It’s
just…” He threw up his hands and faced me…his face filled with such anguish,
love, hurt, and pain. “You’re still Nat’s girl…in your heart and in person. I
could try everything to change that, but deep down, we both know you will
always love him.” He moved in close to me where his lips almost met mine. “As
much as I love Nat, Summer, I want closure, too. For your sake, as well as
mine. Because I can’t go on loving and wanting you like this, while you love
him, too.”
    I
bit my lips and moved a step away from him. Being this physically close to him was
clouding my judgment. I knew if I was to make a choice at this moment, I would
jump him, and worry about consequences later. If I gave into my feelings and my
passion, I would be all over him. I would let him have me through and through. I
wanted Drew to ravish me, to use me, to take me. I wanted him to play dirty
with me, to bring out the wild side in me. I wanted him to bring me to the
edge, to stretch me until I couldn’t give any further. I knew there was so much
within him, so much that he felt but had to restrain that if we were to
completely let go and lose ourselves in each other, we would be utterly and
deeply gone. There would not be a Drew or a Summer, but just one entity. That
kind of passion and love was dangerous.
    I
wasn’t sure if I wanted to take that