going to get away with less than the truth.
âYou see too much, Rosa. I should have known youâd guess. Very well. I climbed up the tree as I told you and saw that I couldnât get down. That was true. But youâre quite right. I didnât tell you everything.â
âWhich wasâ¦?â
âIt seemed like hours before I saw someone coming, and when I did I took it to be Will Darby. I knew he would pass by on his way home so I called out to him and he came over. Butâ¦but it wasnât Will Darby, after all.â
âI knew it! It was this stranger,â Rosa said.
Emily nodded. âHe agreed to catch me if I jumped, but the branch broke, and we fell and rolled down the slope. That was when I got the rest of the scratches.â
âWas he hurt?â
âIâ¦I donât think so. He didnât seem to be. Heâ¦heâs very strong.â
Rosa watched, fascinated, as Emilyâs lips curved up in a small, reminiscent smile. âWhatâ¦what happened then?â she asked care fully.
âI was dazed, of course. He waited until I felt better, thenâ¦â Emily glanced briefly at Rosa and said, âThen I left him and came home.â
âAlone? He didnât offer to see you home safely? What a strange man he must be to leave you to find your own way after such a fall! He canât have been much of a gentleman.â
âNo! No, you mustnât think⦠Heâ¦he wanted to bring me home. I wouldnât let him.â
âWhy ever not?â
âHeâ¦heâ¦he kissed me.â
âAgainst your will? The heart less wretch!â
âNo⦠It wasnât like that. It wasnât at all like that!â
Emily got up and walked away. Her voice was muffled as she said, still not turning round, âI let him kiss me. Willingly.â
This surprised Rosa so much that for a moment she couldnât say anything. Then she stammered, âI canât believe it!â
âNeither can I! Not now.â Emily stood a moment with her back towards Rosa. When she turned round, she had a look of desperation on her face. âI donât know what came over me, Rosa!â she said in a stifled voice. âIâm not normally soâ¦so idiotic. Perhaps it had all been too much for meâMrs Gosworth, the bull, then falling from the treeâ¦I donât know! But, whatever the reason, I behaved like aâ¦like a wanton. I must have been mad. How will I ever forget it?â
âOf course you can. You were dazed, in shock. Donâtget upset, Emily! It was probably more difficult than you think to refuse him.â
âBut afterwardsâ¦I should have been angry, should have fought to get away from him as quickly as I could. But I didnât.â She fell silent and her face softened into a smile of remembrance. For a moment she lookedâ¦vulnerable. âI enjoyed it. He was so kindâ¦so gentle⦠I felt soâ¦so safe with himâ¦so cherished⦠I didnât push him away. I wanted him to kiss me again. And he did.â She shook her head in a gesture of repudiation. âIâm stillâ¦so ashamed.â
Rosa got up and said softly, âDearest Emily, you mustnât be. I think it quite likely that the shock of the fall affected your behaviour yesterday. You were grateful to him, as well as dazed. I shouldnât worry about the state of your morals! But thereâs more to it than that.â She thought for a moment. âLetâs go for a walk.â
As they walked through an avenue of trees planted by Philipâs great-grandfather nearly a hundred years before, Rosa said, âMrs Gosworth can be very cruel indeed. I suffered at her hands quite badly. My first marriage, as you know, was an unhappy one. Stephen, my husband, was involved with some very disreputable people⦠Mrs Gosworth somehow or other heard about Stephen and when I visited her shortly after our