more than a vagabond. Certainly no one a respectable spinster like me could ever consider as a husband! No, I donât think I shall marry, whatever Mrs Gosworth says.â She paused, and then said hesitantly, âIn fact, I have a different plan for the future. You could help me with it, if you would.â
âOf course I will,â said Rosa. âBut what is it?â
âIf Philip agreed, I should like most of all to set up house on my own. Near at hand, of course. You could help me to persuade him.â
Rosa was deeply shocked. She turned on Emily. âWhat a dreadful idea! I wonât do anything of the sort. I wouldnât be at all happy with such an arrangement and neither would Philip. This is your home, Emily, and the only good reason for you to leave it would be with a man who loves you and wants to marry you.â She stopped short, and continued more slowly, her voice revealing how hurt she was, âWhat have we done that you should prefer to live alone, however near at hand? I thought you loved us.â
Emily sighed inwardly and wished she had said nothing. It was just as she had foreseen. And Philipâs reaction would be just the same. How could she explain to two of the people she loved best in the world that she often felt lonely in their company, often felt like an outsider, a hanger-on, however kindly they treated her? She loved them, enjoyed their company, and would always want to spend time with them. But she would never be really content until she was mistress of her own establishment, creating a garden again, planning improvements. In that way she would feel in de pen dent enough to spend as much time as she wanted with them, without feeling she was intruding on their idyll. They were so happy together. She sighed again. They would never understand. It was an impossible dream.
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Meanwhile Emilyâs stranger had arrived at Thirle, where he was staying with Lady Deardon, his godmother.
âReally, William, you are a disgrace! What the servants think of you I cannot imagine.â
âGood God, maâam, since when have we had to worry what the servants think? You donât pay âem to think!â
Lady Deardon tapped her stick impatiently. âYour life in South America has spoilt you, my boy. Mark my words, youâll soon change your tune when you have an establishment of your own to run here in England. Good servants are to be treasured. Your man arrived some time ago with your baggage. I cannot for the life of me call him your valet. Anyone less like a gentlemanâs gentleman would be difficult to imagine. But I suppose he knows what to do. Do go and put some respectable clothes on before Reggie sees you. You know what a stickler he is, and heâll be back for dinner soon. Then you can tell me your news.â
âThere isnât much,â William said briefly, as he went out. âI havenât seen anything Iâd call really suitable.â
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Emily would not have recognised him when he at last came down stairs again. Not only had he washed and shaved, but everything about him, from his carefully brushed hair to his gleaming evening shoes, his immaculate shirt and perfectly tied cravat, his beautifully fitted coat of blue super fine and snowy white pantaloons, pronounced him to be a gentleman of some distinction.
âI must say you scrub up well,â said Lady Deardon. âWhy you choose to wander about the countryside like a tramp I cannot imagine. Reggie has just arrived. Heâs dressing now, so thereâs time for us to have a talk. Have you heard anything more about the children?â
âThe latest news is that they will stay in Jamaica withthe Warburtons until they can all come to England some time in the autumn.â
âWho are these Warburtons?â
âGood friends of mine from my days in the Navy. When John died so unexpectedly, they took the children in.â
âPoor little things. I