sure?â
Heâd expect nothing less from her than absolute selflessness. Which made him feel like an absolute creep. He tried to cover that with a smile so she wouldnât even have a hint of how hard just seeing her was for him. âIâm positive. I feel terrific.â
âOkay.â
With that she opened the door and slipped out. When the door closed behind her, he hung his head. It had been an accident of fate that heâd gotten the flu the very day she was here to clean his house. But he wasnât an idiot. His reaction to her proved that having her back in his lifeâeven as a temporary employeeâwasnât going to work. The weeks it took Ava to find a permanent maid would be filled with a barrage of memories that would overwhelm him with intense sadness one minute and yearning for what might have been the next.
He should get rid of her. Thatâs what his common sense was telling him to do. But in his heart he knew he owed her. For more than just staying with him while he was sick. He should have never talked her into marrying him.
CHAPTER THREE
I T WAS FIVE OâCLOCK when Liz finally fell into bed. Ellie called her around eleven, reminding her that they were taking Amanda Gray and her children, the family who had moved into the Friend Indeed house the weekend before, to the beach.
She slogged out from under the covers and woke herself up in the shower. She pulled a pair of shorts and a navy-blue-and-white striped T-shirt over her white bikini, and drove to Amandaâs temporary house. Ellieâs little blue car was already in the driveway. She pushed out into the hot Miami day and walked around back to the kitchen door.
âMrs. Harper!â Amandaâs three-year-old daughter Joy bounced with happiness as Liz entered and she froze.
Liz had been part of the welcoming committee when Amanda and her children had arrived at the house, but until this very second she hadnât made the connection that Joy was about the age her child would have been.
Her child.
Her heart splintered. She should have a child right now. But she didnât. Sheâd lost her baby. Lost her marriage. Lost everything in what seemed like the blink of an eye.
Swallowing hard, she got rid of the lump in her throat. The barrage of self-pity that assailed her wasnât just unexpected; it was unwanted. She knew spending so much time with Cain had caused her to make the connection between her baby and Joy. But that didnât mean she had to wallow in it. Her miscarriage had been three years ago. Sheâd had therapy. She might long for that child with every fiber of her being, but, out of necessity, sheâd moved on.
Amanda, a tall redhead with big blue eyes, corrected her daughter. âItâs Ms. Harper, not Mrs.â
âThatâs okay,â Liz said walking into the kitchen, knowing she had to push through this. If she was going to work in the same city as her ex, she might not be able to avoid him. She most definitely couldnât avoid all children the same age her child would have been. Being in contact with both might be a new phase of her recovery.
She could handle this. She would handle this.
âSmells great in here.â
âI made French toast,â Ellie said, standing at the stove. âWant some?â
âNo. Weâre late.â She peeked into the picnic basket sheâd instructed Ellie to bring. âWhen we get to the beach, Iâll just eat some of the fruit you packed.â
âOkay.â Ellie removed her apron and hung it in the pantry. âThen weâre ready to go.â
Amanda turned to the hall. âIâll get Billy.â
Billy was a sixteen-year-old who deserted them the second the two cars they drove to the beach stopped in the public parking lot. Obviously expecting his desertion, Amanda waved at his back as he ran to a crowd of kids his own age playing volleyball.
Amanda, Ellie and Liz spent the next
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