hours building a sand castle with Joy who was thrilled with all the attention. Around four oâclock, Ellie and Amanda left the sand to set up a picnic under their umbrella.
Joy smiled up at Liz. âDo you like sand?â
She gazed down at the adorable cherub. The wind tossed her thin blond locks. Her blue eyes sparkled. Now that Liz was over the shock of realizing Joy and her baby would have been close to the same age, she felt normal again. Strong. Accepting of that particular sadness in her life. That was the difference between her and Cain. Sheâd dealt with her loss. She hadnât let it turn her into someone who couldnât connect with people.
âI love the beach. Iâm happy to have someone to share it with.â
Joy nodded enthusiastically. âMe, too!â
They ate the sandwiches and fruit Ellie had packed for dinner, then Joy fell asleep under the umbrella. Obviously relaxed and happy, Amanda lay beside her daughter and closed her eyes, too.
âSo what did you do yesterday?â Ellie singsonged in the voice that told Liz she knew something out of the ordinary had happened the day before.
Liz peered over at Ellie. Did the woman have a sixth sense about everything? âNot much.â
âOh, come on. You never take a day off. I know something happened.â
Liz grabbed the bottle of sunscreen and put her attention to applying it. Knowing Ellie wouldnât let her alone unless she told her something, she said, âI was taking care of a sick friend.â
Ellie nudged her playfully. âSo? Who was this friend?â
âJust a friend.â
âA man!â
âI said nothing about a man.â
Ellie laughed. âYou didnât need to. The fact that you wonât give me a name or elaborate proves Iâm right.â
How could she argue with that?
Ellie squeezed her shoulder. âIâm proud of you.â
âDonât make a big deal out of it.â
Ellie laughed gaily. âLetâs see. You not only took a day off, but you were with a man and Iâm not supposed to make a big deal out of it?â
âNo, youâre not. Because Iâm never going to see him again.â
âHow do you know?â
âBecause I know.â
âOkay, then.â Ellie closed her eyes and her face scrunched comically.
âWhat are you doing?â
âWishing that youâd see him again.â
âYou might not want to do that.â
âOh, I think I do.â
âThe man was my ex.â
Ellieâs eyes popped open. âOh, Liz! Damn it. You should have told me that before I wished. You know how powerful my wishes can be.â
âThatâs why I told you now. You need to take it back.â
âI canât.â
âYeah, well, youâd better or youâre going to break your record of wishes granted. Because Iâm not going to see him again.â
Stupidly, that made her sad. Sheâd loved Cain with her whole heart and soul, but his brother had died and heâd gone into his shell. Sheâd tried to hang in there with him, to be there when he reached the point that he could work through his pain and withdrawal, but he never had. And then one day she realized she was pregnant. She knew in her heart that Cain wasnât ready for a child, so sheâd waited a few weeks, hoping that if she were further along the pregnancy would seem more real to him. Maybe even be a cause for joy.
But sheâd miscarried before sheâd had a chance to tell him and suddenly she was the one unable to function. She knew she needed help. At the very least she needed someone to talk to. She couldnât talk to Cain. She wouldnât have been able to handle it if he had dismissed the loss of the little life so precious to her. So sheâd gone. Their marriage had been in shambles anyway. The miscarriage simply pointed out what she already knew. Cain wasnât emotionally
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