phase where this one thing rules their lives. It becomes a scourge of parents worldwide who lose sleep. This one thing is also a bonding opportunity between parents and offspring. Thing is, I never had nighttime soothing sessions. Mom and Dad never had to come to my room in the middle of the night because their daughter was screaming and afraid of the boogeyman under the bed, or ghosts in the closets. Iâve been dwelling on this one thing. Really thinking about it.â
âYouâre talking about being afraid of the dark.â
âExactly,â said Birdie. âIâve never been afraid of the dark. For me, even as a child, the night brought safety. Night swallowed the fear. Thatâs why Iâve always had blackout shades on my windows.â
âBut that changed. Youâre afraid of the dark now.â
âYes,â she said quietly. âIt drives Ron crazy that the hallway remains lit and thereâre night lights in my bedroom.â
âItâs a symptom of post-traumatic stress.â
âThatâs what Ron keeps saying, too. And I know that. But the whole point is that I came to this thought on my own. Frank, it may seem trivial to you, but Iâm proud about this realization. You always say to me that I have to own what happened to me because it is a permanent part of me now. And Iâll try. I promise. But for now, Iâve learned something. And maybe that something will help me become less afraid of the dark or lead to another something and eventually my comfort level and actions.â
Birdie plopped into an overstuffed chair and a puff of dust floated upward and caught the window light of Frankâs rectory office. âYou think me silly,â she said.
âNo. Iâm glad. Even if itâs a black pug that gets you there. Youâre making progress. Slow and steady and forward.â
âYes. Thatâs what I want.â
A soft knock on the door announced its opening. A young boy with a mop of blond peeked in. âFather?â
âIâm coming,â said Frank. âGo on, Iâll be right there.â
The door closed with a soft click.
Frank kissed Birdieâs head. âThis is good. Thank you for sharing.â
âYou know me, Frank. I always share.â
âA little too much sometimes,â he said smiling. âDo you have a confession?â
âNot this week.â
His eyes shot to the cross hanging next to the window. âMiracles do happen,â he whispered. He made the sign of the cross over Birdie. â In Nomine Patris, et Filii, et Spiritus Sancti , Dominus vobiscum .â
â Et cum spiritu tuo .â
âAmen,â they said together.
âBy the way,â he said, âhow did Ron command Louise to sit?â
âHe said in a firm voice, âsitâ then âstay.ââ
âHow did he release her?â
âHe said, âcome.ââ
âOnly three words,â he mused. Frank then excused himself. He had a Mass to celebrate. A congregation to attend. Birdie was not his only customer today.
After he left the room Birdie was struck by the feeling that her vulnerability was not a weakness. It was a strength she had to harness.
Where did that come from?
She gazed up at the cross.
Really? Are you sure?
One thing she did know for sure. Her lungs were beginning to work again.
eight
Detective Thom Keane scanned the SID crew. âWhoâs what?â
A woman held up her hand. âPrints.â
Another woman said, âSerology.â
âIâm Reynolds,â said a man, pointing at the camera around his neck.
âFilm or digital?â
âWhatâs your choice?â
Thom liked the idea of film for a media case. No one could accuse the department of altering a digital image. âFilm,â he decided.
âYou got it. I already shot the exterior, points of entry, generals, and compass points in digital. Iâll