big eyes. âOoh!â she says, waving her pencil. âAn idea, I have an idea. Okay, what if everyone brought their own food?â
âFor what?â I say.
âYour birthday party,â she says.
âA party? I donât have time for that,â I say.
âLiar,â she says. âYouâve been devising intricate plans and writing lists for three months. I know it because I know you and I have seen how you write endless lists when youâre planning and I donât even understand how they donât give you panic attacks.â
âI like to be organized,â I say.
âSo, my idea,â she says.
âSo what youâre saying is everyone brings their own food to eat?â I ask. Jolene laughs.
â Well , that would be an incredible cost savings and possibly also net you some easy clean-up with a tradeoff for the environmental damage factor with all the disposable plates and things. But no!â She slaps her sketchbook down on the desk. âWe assign everyone a country and they bring a food from it.â
âWeâre inviting the entire class,â I say. âAre there that many countries?â
Laura rolls her eyes at me.
âAnd are we that organized?â I say.
âI know you are,â Laura says.
âThe real question is, do I want to be?â I counter.
Jolene says to Laura, âI would rather not organize a global buffet.â She glances up as Dr. Ellman strolls by. âOrganizing buffets is not my strongest skill,â Jolene says innocently.
Dr. Ellman stops at my chair. âPsst,â she says, leaning over my shoulder. âOne of your best qualities is conviction. â She winks at me and then strolls away with her hands behind her back. Her oxfords are very shiny.
âI donât even know what that means,â I say. âWhy is she telling me this?â I throw my pen down and it bounces across the table and then slides onto the floor.
âI think your best quality is self-assuredness,â Jolene says.
âI think itâs your eyebrows,â Laura says.
âI think itâs your chili,â Hector says. He is not wrong.
âAlso,â Laura says, âfeather boas and tiaras! And beads and scarves and masks and dancing.â
I blink. âWhat?â Those donât sound like qualities.
âFor the party?â she says. Sometimes it is hard to follow in her wake. Everything looks easy and effortless for her and Brandon. And they both seem to understand how the world works. They know how to survive outside of this little hothouse of a town. I suspect the rest of us are going to find out the hard way.
âYes of course for the party,â she says.
âWill there really be tiaras?â I say suspiciously.
âYou do love tiaras,â Jolene says to me. Sheâs smiling. Her eyes are the frostiest blue and her skin is pale and freckled, so she always looks like she is dappled with sunlight. Her bob is a bright knife-edge along the line of her jaw. Laura always says someday sheâll be someoneâs yuppie dream mom, in tailored shirts and cuffed shorts and perfect, unscuffed flats.
âI donât mind tiaras,â I say. âTheyâre kind of whimsical.â I pause. âMy best quality is whimsy.â
Hector raises his eyebrows at me. âI donât think you should write that one down.â
âWhat do you mean? I am filled with humor and light!â I argue.
Jolene is laughing because she knows when Iâm joking. Laurafrowns at me because she worries when I joke.
âWhat about pizza?â Hector says.
âNo,â I say.
âYou never listen to me,â he says.
âSo why start now?â Laura asks.
âHector has a point. Everyone likes pizza,â Jolene points out. She picks up the pen and writes âPIZZAâ all in caps.
âYes, but itâs my birthday. I care about what Iâd like,â I