again,â I said. She didnât budge. In contrast to her brother, I found her plain, with a nose too tiny and lips too narrow for her square face. Her brown hair appeared without substance, drab and flyaway, but her eyes, large and intense, burned with intelligence. I turned back to the dishes.
âMary says youâre not one of them.â
I plunged my hand into the grey and greasy dishwater and hunted around for the last few pieces of cutlery. âOne of whom?â I pulled out a cheese-caked spoon.
âSnow Whiteâs dwarfs.â
I groaned. I worked in the wilderness to avoid conversations like this.
âMary says youâre a regular person, but small like me.â
âAnd what do you think?â I glared at the childâs upturned face.
âDo you want to play dolls?â Rainbow pulled two naked plastic dollsâone white, one black, each the size of a thumbâ out of her pocket.
âNo, I donât want to play dolls,â I snapped. I attacked the spoon with a wire pot scrubber.
âThen youâre not like me.â Without another word Rainbow skipped off toward Paulâs tent, leaving me holding the spoon and the scrubber in the air, soapy water dripping onto my foot.
I stared after her. Paul nudged my shoulder as he walked by with a second pot of water. âYouâve got soap on your boot,â he teased, setting the pot on the stove.
I threw the spoon onto a plate, carried the dishwater a dozen steps away, and dumped it out in the middle of a sword fern. âI hope youâre making tea.â
âNope.â He grinned. âDiaper water.â
Mary travelled light. Besides the lack of tent and food, she carried only two cotton diapers for Cedar. âOne to wear and one to dry,â she explained. The woman failed to understand she had walked her children into a rainforest, a place where dry is a relative term. A place where three or four metres of rain falls each year. Where trees grow continuously in the mild temperatures, where itâs never too hot or too cold, where itâs too wet for forest fires. Youâre a fool , I wanted to scream at her, canât you see ? Every surface dripped with life, green in a million shades, ankle thick moss, slime moulds, curled sheets of lichen, head high prehistoric ferns, cream and gold mushrooms at the base of every tree, bracket fungi clinging to mouldy trunksâdripping, creeping, clinging, crawling, sprouting, peeling, rotting.
It turns out Mary had neglected to bring another item for her children. Rain gear.
4
I woke in the middle of the night to the plop of tentative raindrops on the tent fly. Within five minutes, the rain had accelerated to a deluge. I unzipped the door halfway and shone a flashlight beam around the clearing. Through the curtain of water I could make out the blue polyethylene tarp protecting the kitchen and climbing gear, and the second tent where Mary and her children slept. The afternoon Iâd spent in my back yard in Victoria sealing the seams of the two tents meant we would stay dry. But Paul, curled up like a fetus on the gravel bank in his bivy sacâa cocoon of waterproof nylonâ was exposed to the elements. Heâd chosen the spot with his usual care, away from the trees that dripped water long after a storm passed, and well up from the winter flood level.
âWhy donât you sleep under the kitchen tarp?â I had suggested when he spread his bedding out on the ground, flipping stones away with his foot.
âYou know Iâm wild about stars. Besides, itâs only one night,â he answered.
Thick, heavy cloud now hid the constellations. I aimed the flashlight at the orange bulge of nylon. In reaction, it folded in half like a caterpillar and Paul squinted against the glare from the draw-stringed opening, beard glinting with droplets of water.
âSorry.â I redirected the beam. âAre you okay?â
He yawned. Water
Brenna Ehrlich, Andrea Bartz