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she was sure.
    “She says God made Adam and Eve. He made women for men. She says that two girls can’t make a baby. I don’t want a baby. I want to be happy and won’t live a lie. If I was with a boy I wouldn’t be happy. God won’t stop loving me if I love a girl.”
    “You sound like you really know what you want . ” BrookLyn thought she did too — until tonight. Gabriella definitely threw her off her well thought out course.
    “I used to be scared about it. My older cousins and my counselor, Ms. Evans helped me. I used to think God would turn His back on me , like my aunt said , but too many people told me different. They told me God loves you no matter what. I believe them. Nobody told my aunt who to love , so I won’t let her tell me.”
    “God won’t turn His back. He wouldn’t be God if He did . ” BrookLyn’s eyes were getting heavier as she tried to listen.
    “I always tell her that if He didn’t want me to love girls , then He wouldn’t have made me this way. I didn’t just wake up one day and say that I was going to like girls instead of boys. It’s something inside of me.”
    “Did you see that something inside of me too?”
    “No . B ut I saw something in you that I never saw in anyone else. Like I told you before, from the first second I saw you in church, I wanted to be with you. I just wasn’t sure if I ever could.”
    “Does it mean that I like girls too ... if we’re together?”
    “It means we’re together , if we’re together. I know I like girls and right now, I hope you like me . ”
    BrookLyn was fading off. She could hear Gabriella talking but didn’t want to open her eyes. The rollercoaster of a day had finally caught up with her.
    “You do know you asked me a question and then had nerve to fall asleep when I answered?” Gabriella laughed.
    BrookLyn hoped she hadn’t been snoring. “I’m tired . ” She yawned , stretching for emphasis.
    “Your snoring gave that away.”
    BrookLyn felt her cheeks flush with embarrass ment , but she just smiled , closed her eyes and breathed deeply , letting her fears soar out into the cool night through the opened window.
    Gabriella wrapped her arms around BrookLyn and held her close. She didn’t know what tomorrow would bring, but knew it would be different , because she would be different too. She was comfortable in Gabriella ’s arms and it felt good. The sweet smell of her breath and warmth of her body comforted BrookLyn’s shaken spirit and she fell asleep to dreams full of bright colors and stars .
     

 
    Chapter T hree
     
    BrookLyn woke up startled that she was wrapped in someone’s arms , forgetting for a moment where she was. Wondering if she were lost in a dream, she turned her head slowly . S eeing Gabriella it all came flooding back to her .
    BrookLyn remembered being locked out of her house , and now the thought of having to deal with that misery was g iving her an enormous headache. Then thoughts of last night with Gabriella edged into her awareness. Am I her girlfriend for real? Do I even like girls ? How do I know? I know I enjoyed Gabriella kissing and touching me . How do I know if I’m ready for more ? She shifted her body and stretch ed, waking Gabriella . She smiled at BrookLyn.
    BrookLyn smiled back. Gabriella was beautiful and beyond sweet but did she really want this? She was eighteen years old and this would be her first relationship. It was really out of her league and literally the furthest thing from her mind when she had asked to go to the party.
    Gabriella stretched and leaned in. “How’s my pretty girl this morning?” She kiss ed BrookLyn’s brow with her soft full lips.
    Gabriella certainly knew what to say. S weet words rolled off of her lips like butter. She looked directly at BrookLyn with eyes that always managed to intrigue her. BrookLyn looked away . “I’m feeling okay. I just have to call my house.”
    Gabriella passed her the house phone.
    “Thanks . ” BrookLyn stared at the