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a smile.
    “No. It’s over for me. You should move forward with Alyssa still. I know you want her.” Grant was having a hard time letting go, but he would step aside and let Justin and Alyssa be together. He wouldn’t stand in the way.
    “Nope. It’s all or nothing. I’m not moving forward without you. Period.” Justin turned and headed back into the pub. Grant followed him. He could hear people laughing and wished that he felt like being surrounded by friends right now. The only thing he wanted to do was go upstairs to their large apartment and drink until he passed out.
    He really wanted to talk to Alyssa. Maybe the three of them had a chance, or maybe he could convince her to still be with Justin. Justin deserved her. He would love her and take care of her. It might actually kill him to see them together and not be a part of it. He stopped when he saw their friends sitting around the large table. They all looked so happy. Clint, Clay, and Cody were all staring at Bella, laughing, talking, and touching her. Beau and Chase were deep in conversation with Jessica. They all looked so in love. He watched them, wishing that he had that with Justin and Alyssa.
    Grant walked out and smiled, nodding to his friends. He didn’t feel like talking. He didn’t want to feel like this anymore. He didn’t want to fake it through dinner, but he would for Justin and he would for his friends. How could he go on like this? It had been weeks, but it felt like months. Seeing her walk by the pub, mingling during the town’s weekly market, and hearing her laugh with her friends. How much longer could he take this? They needed to hash things out. He knew she was a fighter. Why wasn’t she fighting now? Why wasn’t she at least saying something? It made no sense.
    He walked back to the kitchen and started working, finishing with their meal. He thought this would be a good night to talk, after dinner, maybe take her to the ranch house she was staying at on the Coltons’ property. On the other hand, if they were extremely lucky, they could take her home and the three of them would finally talk. It looked like both those scenarios weren’t gonna happen after all. She was gone, their chances over. His chances were over. With that in mind, he finished the task at hand. Yeah, he’d push Justin toward her. He wanted them to be together. 
     

Chapter 3
    Alyssa wandered around town with no destination in mind. Her phone was beeping. Another text message from Bella, she assumed. Jessica and Bella were all at the pub now and wondering where she was and what had happened to send her running. She didn’t want to tell them. She had said too much already to Hannah. The beeps continued. She sat down, ready to see what they were saying.
     
    “Where r u?” Jessica typed.
    “I thought u would be here b 4 us.” From Bella.
     
     
    She decided to text Jessica. Maybe she would understand her predicament. After all, she was having some issues with Beau and Chase. Bella, on the other hand, was in love and might not understand how she felt.
     
    “I went for a walk. Too awkward there by myself with Grant & Justin.”
    “I heard Hannah left early. Little slut.  What’s going on?”
    “I just can’t seem to deal with them. It’s Grant. He makes me crazy.”
    “Come back. I’m here. We can run interference for each other, since both Beau and Chase are here. Please.”
    “I guess. But you’d better stay in between us.”
     
     
    Alyssa sat there on the bench, unsure of herself for the first time in a long time. She wasn’t beautiful like Bella, nor was she as confident as Jessica. She hated comparing herself to them. Every time she did, she felt worse. She was confused. That spanking, it made her feel things she didn’t want to feel. Like how wonderful his large hands felt against her ass or how his strong thighs held her in place, even how his calf muscles had flexed while she was holding onto him. Could she really walk in there? The