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like to be in
your shoes, to be born to such
a family. You should feel blessed for all you have, for being beautiful
and
intelligent and for having the opportunity to become a lawyer. You have
no
reason to feel this way. You’re acting like a spoiled child.”
    “Reasons and feelings, why they always have to
go together? You talk
as if I choose to feel this way. But I don’t. If I knew what to do to
feel
better, I would.”
    Their know-it-all attitude frustrated me. I
wanted their compassion,
not judgment. I wanted to feel their love, not the burden of guilt for
making
them feel disillusioned with me.
    Each day I was hoping to find some miraculous
cure which would make everyone
happy again.  
    And one day, I did:
    “What if my depression is not a curse, but my
opportunity to change
my life radically? An opportunity to do something that will excite my
tired
mind, will free my enchained spirit, and will give me again the choices
I had
missed,” I asked myself looking in the mirror.
    A new chance, A chance to
cut the apron strings, my inner
voice answered.
    “Yes, a chance to master my own destiny and
build a new life,
completely different from what I had and what is planned for me to
have. A life
forged by me, with my own failures and my own achievements, a life in
which I’d
fight for my own dreams. A life worth living. My own adventure.”
    And how exactly do you propose to do that?
    “There are moments in life when making small
changes it’s not
enough. You cannot build a brand new house on the same shifting soil.”
    You need to be a tabula rasa again.
    “Or close to it. I need to be far away from my
parents’ pressure,
away from any preconceived ideas about how should I be or what should I
do. I
could go to Canada. When I visited my mom’s cousin in Montreal, I loved
it
there.”
    You could give it a try. Plus, she might be
able to help you in
times of need.
    “Worse come to worse, I could always come back.”
    Worse will become even worse if you’ll come
back.
    “Canada will be my adventure. ‘A ship is safe
in harbor, but that’s
not what ships are built for.’ I believe it was William Shedd who said
that.”
    So, go with the wind. But, you have no plan.
You barely speak any
English and even if you would, your law degree is not recognized.
You’ve never
done anything in your life, except of reading books. You don’t even
know how to
make two fried eggs.
    “I’ll just have to play it by ear. The best
plan is nothing more
than confidence that everything will work out for the best, is it? It
must be a
way. And I will find it.”
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    Dora’s
Journal Notes
Depression is not
a choice, but an
unwanted and predictable outcome of a series of unhappy choices.
Don’t try to
explain to others how
depression feels like; try to learn from them what is to see beyond it.
Accept you are a
work in progress, that
there are things which you cannot change, others which take time to
change and
some which will be a shame to change.
If you are living
a dream and you are
still depressed, check if you are not living someone else’s dream.
Don’t be afraid of
feeling sad; it
might be just the push you need for making another attempt at
happiness.
Life is simple,
living it is
complicated.
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6
Family is Forever: Hazard or Blessing
    Family,
we all might think
    Is
a “bloody” kind of thing,
    I
believe it’s more about
    Love
and support
    Be
it sunny or cloud’

While some
people are followers, love routine, and thrive on order, others are
leaders,
love adventure, and thrive in chaos. Irrespective on how each of us is,
one
thing is certain: no progress would be possible and the world would be
a boring
place if we were all identical.
    Same as we need dark to rest and light to live,
same as events are
generated in noise and thought of in quiet, each of us has his own role
in the
world, his own mission to fulfill. For some, it will be easier to
recognize it;
others might search for it their entire life, but nobody