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the damage she caused. I am damaged goods, thanks to her. I see that she hasn’t changed one bit. It’s always about her and what she wants. Would it have killed her to ask me what I needed from her or what would help me to heal? Davona never even bothered to ask how her stupid ass had affected my life. Or just a simple, are you okay? It might be rocket science to her crack head ass, but to me, it’s common sense. There will be some long, hard thinking after this. Maybe I could turn a new leaf and be the bigger person, but that really isn’t my style. Where is the benefit in being the bigger person? Until I see a reward at the end of this dark tunnel, being the bigger person is out of the question.
    I have a few good memories of our life together and the rest was like a scene from hell. Now she wanna play the victim and take me on a guilt trip. She could have apologized before this happened. She came to Granny’s, trying to be cool like it has just been a long time since we’ve seen each other, and telling how much she missed me. The word sorry never found its way out of her mouth. This bitch ain’t changed. Davona had better be lucky that I didn’t go to that room to finish what her dude started.

Davona
    I am so glad that Sacaria finally stopped by to see me. I want to tell her so much, but I don’t know if the time is right. I just don’t want Harvey to catch up to me and kill me. I never had the chance to tell her everything. I want the chance to love her, as she has always needed me to. I will just keep praying that I get the chance.
     

Chapter 5
Sacaria
    I haven’t talked to Shayvon in over a week. I felt guilty about shutting him out, but I don’t want him to see me. I don't like to be around anyone when I am all fucked up in the head. For the life of me, I don’t know why I react to stress and hurt the way I do. My window blinds stay closed at times like this. I don’t get dressed, brush my teeth, and might not even wash my ass. My hair can end up being another story all on its own. One time my hair ratted up so bad that I damn near had to cut it. If I did not have to force myself to eat, then I wouldn’t get out of my bed either. It’s just hard to fight away the hopelessness, so I succumb to it. Shay won’t understand and he might not like what he sees. I just hope that he will wait for me to get back on track. A nigga like him would never have to wait on any female and especially not me.

Shayvon
    Todd and Q’Mari gathered up some of the flyest bitches and threw a butt-naked party. If you weren’t willing to get ass naked in that mother, then you wasn’t welcome. Except, the three of us, never took our clothes off though, unless we was fucking. Anyways, we were doing the most with bare titties and ass everywhere, things couldn’t be better. Everybody had been supplied with the drug of their choice and drinking the finest. We did freaky shit all night. The video was constantly recording, and it was all good in that joint. I approached Q’Mari on some drunk conversation shit, while he was sucking on girl’s neck and fingering her. It was nothing for us, because that’s how we partied. Nobody gave a fuck. It was almost like one big orgy. I just never liked to share. Whoever was with me was with me and me only for the night. I might have five hoes to myself but they weren’t allowed to fuck nobody in the party but me. Nobody ever complained about it and neither did I.
    This Latina with a fat ass kept following me around all night. Although her voice was sexy, I was still having a hard time chilling with a female that I could not understand. Truth be told, I wasn't really interested in talking no way, but some bitches be having some dope conversation. Miss Latina was relentless, and finally pinned me in a corner and got on her knees. She wrapped both hands around my dick, spit on it and went to work. Once I let her give me some head, she became determined to fuck me. Two other females joined