being with such a beautiful woman made me sick, but I forced myself to stop thinking about it.
Hawke turned his gaze away from the sky and watched me. “Did you have a good day?”
“That’s a stupid question.” I forced a chuckle and hoped it sounded sincere. “I sat under a cabana while people waited on me hand and foot. Yes, it was a good day.”
Hawke knew me well enough to see through my mask. He could tell I was trying to hide something, and within a few seconds, he figured out what it was. “It happened a few times but it never meant anything—to either one of us.”
I looked away in embarrassment. He could read the pain on my face so easily despite how hard I tried to hide it.
“She wanted to have another fling on this trip, but I told her I was off the market. She didn’t like that answer so I asked you to come along. Now she knows I’m being serious.”
I looked out into the water, watching it grow darker with every passing second. “I’m bug repellent?”
He chuckled under his breath. “I guess, if you want to put it that way.”
Actually, I was pretty concerned that he had to bring me along anyway. Did that mean she wouldn’t give up until she got what she wanted?
His hand moved to mine. “You’re the one who told me I have nothing to worry about. The same thing applies to you.”
“I never said I was worried.”
“Muffin, I can see it in your eyes.”
The women in his life before I came along didn’t matter. But the ones that came after did. They never should have been with him in the first place. He should have been mine for the past two years. They took something that didn’t belong to him. Together or apart, he was always mine. “It just bothers me sometimes. I’m not worried you’re going to run off with someone else, and I honestly don’t blame women for wanting you. I just regret that time we lost. She got to have you when you should have been mine.” The last thing I wanted was to hurt him, but I had to speak the truth.
He kept his eyes glued to me, never blinking. “I understand.”
I finally looked him straight on, seeing the remorse on his face.
“I feel the same way about Kyle. Except, that was entirely my fault.”
It was but I didn’t gloat.
His thumb moved across my knuckles. “We’re together now and that’s all that matters. Nothing will keep us apart—ever again.”
When he said beautiful things like that, it was impossible for me to be upset. I got lost in those dark eyes and drifted away in the form of a dream. Whenever we were together, it seemed like we were in an entirely different place, living in an alternate world where no one else could follow.
I removed my dress then slid into the water in my bikini. The water was a little cold but it felt good against my skin. Slowly, I untied the top of my bikini and let it float in the water.
Hawke’s eyes were trained on me. He watched every movement, seeing my top drift across the surface.
I untied my bottoms then gathered them with the bikini top and placed them on the deck. My hair was still in a bun so I pulled it loose and let it fall around my shoulders. The ends fell into the water and immediately became soaked.
Hawke stared at me for minutes, appraising my body through the water. He watched my nipples harden from the cold. Then he slowly undressed himself, tossing aside his shirt and pants. When he pulled down his boxers, his hard cock fell out, proving he was pleased by what he saw.
He slid into the water then walked through it until he was right in front of me. The water level only reached the bottom of his chest, but for me it was almost to my chin.
He dug his wet hands into my hair before he gave me a slow kiss, the kind that wasn’t meant to be lustful. It was slow and careful, treasuring my lips like it might be the last time he ever felt them. He didn’t use his tongue at first. By the time he gave it to me, I was already writhing in the water. No matter how many times he made