cook Jamaican food never mind put a love spell on you. Go put an ad in the paper. âLovely blonde, thirty, seeks handsome man. GSOH.â Now, Iâll drop this off, then my time to watch some television in bed. See, told you Iâm a lonely shrivelled old prune!â With a hearty laugh she sailed away down the corridor.
Laura checked her watch. Other members of staff would be switching off dormitory lights in the wing that accommodated the younger children. After a fraught day a silence had finally crept over the building. Good silence? Or a bad silence? Only time would tell. Sometimes when it got quiet like this in Badsworth Lodge it was like sitting on a time bomb. At least she had good news for Jay.
She found him sitting on the bed in his pyjamas. Rain clicked at the windows. A brittle sound that tugged your nerve endings until you wanted to shout, âStop that!â Jay stared at the picture of a ship in a comic. Maybe heâs beginning to remember?
âJay,â she sat beside him. âGood news. Iâve just had confirmation from my boss: the trip to the island is back on. Weâre leaving tomorrow afternoon.â She refrained from adding âafter Maureenâs funeralâ. âYou must be pleased about that.â
He stared at the picture. A red ship sliding across the ocean.
Gently, Laura added, âI havenât been there, but Iâve heard itâs a nice place. Itâs an island in a river, not the sea. We can have barbecues. They tell me there are otters, deer and even wild mink.â
Without letting his eyes wander from the ship picture he asked, âWill I meet new people?â
âSome.â
âThatâs frightening.â A simple, matter-of-fact statement.
âYouâre going to be frightened of people on the island. Why?â
âNo . . . Iâm frightened of what Iâll do to them.â
âJay.â She put her arm round his shoulders. âThatâs nonsense. Youâre the kindest, most considerate boy Iâve ever met.â
âNobody says Maureenâs name in front of me. They know I killed her.â
Laura had overheard what the children were saying to each other. Jayâs done it again . . . the little witch made the bus crush Maureen . . . She leaned forward so he could see the smile she now wore. âYou mustnât say that. It was an accident. What happened was tragic, and it makes us all hurt inside because we loved Maureen, and we miss her.â Laura made a point of talking about feelings to the children. They were accustomed to suppressing grief until it festered dangerously inside of them. âDo you want to talk about Maureen?â she asked.
âDo you think she ever went on a boat like this?â
âI guess so. What made you ask that?â Maybe heâs having flashbacks of when he was on the ship. With that thought came memories of seven years ago when the news was dominated by the sinking of the NâTaal , taking hundreds of refugees with it. Just one four-year-old boy had been picked up from an inflatable raft.
Slowly, he shook his head. âGrown-ups wonât talk about Maureen in front of me, just like they donât talk about Tod Langdon.â He turned those large brown eyes to her. âTell me what really happened to him.â
âWell . . .â
âYou can tell me a made-up story; thatâs OK if it makes you sad to tell the truth.â
Her mind whirled back six months. Just hours after Jay arrived at Badsworth Lodge she had found him in the kitchen. The eleven-year-old sat on his floor with his back to the fridge door. Emotionally withdrawn, face clammy enough to shine beneath the fluorescent lights, he could have been a mannequin sitting there. A fragile one with jet-black hair, and large â strangely large â eyes that were dark as a shadow. And then Jay began to speak from the depths of