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class when he treat me like shit in class, but whatever. I don’t know if you got beat up in there or what. I talked to your mom and she said that you were calling the house. I asked her if you had asked about me and she said that you said you were through with me. She asked me, “What did you do to my son?” and I told her I didn’t do nothing. I explained to her about why I didn’t write you back, about Roy and stuff, and she just nodded her head and said something like, “Antonio just acting real sensitive right now.” I don’t think she believe me because she been acting funny now when I stop by, so I don’t stay long no more. Or maybe she just sad, real sad that you ain’t there and Mr. Lawrence is dead and Tyler and Trevon is asking her why they daddy gone and they big brother is locked up. So I didn’t ask if I could go with them to see you this
weekend. If your mother’s mad at me and you’re mad at me, then I didn’t want to place myself in a uncomfortable situation.
    But I just want you to know that I do love you. I’m sorry if I wasn’t thinking about you and what you’re going through. I guess I shoulda wrote to you even if you didn’t write me, and I promise it won’t happen again. I promise you I won’t ever hurt you again or ever cheat on you in life. The prom is coming up and I swear to you I’m not going with anybody. Me and Laneice and some of my cousins might all go together and wear the same colors, but that’s it. You’ll be there in my heart. I’ll put your picture in my purse. Write me back soon or call me when you get a chance. I’m back at home now with my mother, so you can call me there. I will sit at home all week if I have to and wait for your call.
    Love,
    Natasha
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    March 17, 1990
Dear Natasha,
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    Baby, I’m so sorry for everything I ever did to you. I’m so sorry for making you upset and making you cry and I promise I will never do it again. When I heard your voice on the phone the other day I just felt so stupid and mad at myself for treating you the way that I treated you and saying the
things that I said and returning your letters. You better keep your promise and send them back because I want to read each and every one of them and write you back for each and every one. I was so relieved when you picked up the phone and took my call. I thought that you would hate me after the way I treated you and how I acted. MGD and Mookie was laughing at me when I was talking on the phone with your ass, calling me whipped and sprung and shit cause I was apologizing so much. They was like, Youngblood got it bad, youngblood got the jones. But I didn’t care. I love you. You’re my woman, my lady, my girl, my heart. Nothing else mattered when I was talking to you. My trial is about to start soon, and it’s gonna be over quick because everybody gonna see the truth about what happened. And when they see the truth and see I ain’t no monster and that I’m a real person with feelings who wouldn’t kill his daddy for nothing, they gonna let me go and then we can be together forever. We can be with each other forever. I want to marry you. Natasha, will you marry me?
    Sincerely,
    Antonio
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    March 21, 1990
Dear Antonio,
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    Yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Love, Natasha

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    March 26, 1990
Dear Natasha,
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    N ubian Princess
A lways got my back
T otally real and fresh
A ntonio’s woman for life
S mile like sunshine
H air like silk
A ll the Woman I need
    Love you forever,
    Antonio
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    March 30, 1990
Dear Antonio,
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    Your mother is real excited about us getting married. She told me that I should make you buy me a big diamond ring when you get out—in a few weeks, she said. You didn’t tell me baby you was getting out in a few weeks, did you? Anyway anyway, it’s this place up on 125th and 7th where I