angel. Her crystal blue eyes looked kind and gave me a feeling of calm. Her wings were pure white and her blue dress stood out in the room. I smiled at her and she smiled back. Pulling her long, blonde hair back, she draped it behind her. I assumed it was so I could see her face better. I didn’t speak for a few minutes. I wasn’t sure if this was really happening or if it was my dream. I had met Ianni before in dreams, but was this for real?
“Are you real?” I finally asked her.
She laughed. “Yes I am very real. As real as I can be for you.”
“What do you mean by that?”
“I cannot come to you except in dreams. So I am as real as I can be in your mind really.” She offered another smile and continued, “I am your new Spirit Guide, Amanda. I have replaced Ianni.”
My smile faded instantly. I didn’t like the sound of Ianni being replaced, but I suppose it had to be done.
“So why are you here with me? For introductions?” I put my hand on my hip.
“No , not really,” she said. “More so to talk with you about a few things. I will admit, I am new at this. I can’t break the rules to talk to you.”
“Why not?”
“I guess you can say that I am not ready for trouble.” She started biting her fingernails.
“Nervous habit?” I asked.
“Yes, sorry. I am a little nervous. Like I said, I am new.” I felt guilty now. Why was I being so harsh to her? It wasn’t like she did anything to me. I relaxed and dropped my attitude.
“Sorry. I am not trying to be rude,” I apologized. “I am not sure why I am feeling this way towards you.”
“I think I know why. Come with me.” She grabbed my hand and pulled me towards the door heading to a small balcony. Once outside she dropped my hand and stood in front of me.
“Do you know this place?” she asked me. “Does it look familiar to you?”
I looked around at the view. The ocean spread before us was as blue as Amanda’s eyes. The sand was white and I noticed a large patch of high grass starting at the footpath. It was beautiful, but I didn’t recognize it at all.
“Nope. But it’s breathtaking.”
“Well i t should be breathtaking! You picked this house to spend your life with Adam in. Of course, you were Elsie then.” Here we go again; more visions and revisits of the past. I had wanted to move forward and now my new guide wants to bring me to my old house.
“That’s great and everything , but why are you telling me this? And furthermore, what does this have to do with why I feel so much angst towards you?” She turned and looked out over the ocean.
“You feel the way you do because your soul is accustomed to Ianni guiding you. You’re having trouble trusting me as your new guide.” It made sense. My soul had been with Ianni for centuries. I knew, and wanted, only her. Nothing against Amanda, but she wasn’t who I was used to. “I brought you here to talk because this was one of your favorite homes. You loved it here. But you didn’t die here.” I remembered that vision. I had died of cancer; it was painful and awful. “I know it’s not a great memory, but that is the life where I met you first.”
“You met me here?” I asked in awe.
“Yes. Before I became a guide, I was a greeter, greeting souls who had recently passed on.” It took me a moment to register it all. “When you died as Elsie I was there to bring you home. I was the one who helped get you settled in and brought you to your other family.” I may remember my past lives, but I don’t remember my time in Heaven. I didn’t remember her, but of course I believed her. I knew that once you died you went with the other family you had from all the lives you lived. You made a home that was comfortable for you and you waited for the others to arrive. So she was telling me she helped me get home and wait for Adam.
“ Why are you here now, in my dream?” I asked, puzzled for a moment. She looked out towards the sea. The smell of
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