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see if I had any messages. He wasn’t easy to erase from my heart and thoughts.
    There were many texts; Carson, Chelz, and several from Matt.
    Carson: Hope you’re okay. I’m here if you need me. Let’s go out dancing when you’re ready.
    I responded to assure him I was fine.
    Me: I’m fine. Slept all day. Much needed. I’ll be back to normal soon. I have to shake it off. Luv u.
    I clicked on Chelsea’s message.
    Chelsea: He sent flowers to the gym. I took the card, but donated flowers to front desk. He later came into the gym looking for you. He looked a mess. Good! He asked about you and where you stayed. He kept saying he will fix this. I told him it’s best to leave you alone. Hope he got the message. Are you okay? Text back.
    I couldn’t leave her hanging. She gave me some really important information about Matt, and I wanted her to continue supporting me in my decision to move on.
    Me: I’m okay. I slept all day. Thanks for support. I got flowers at home. I left them on the steps and just took the card. Please throw away the card. I don’t want to read it. I’m focused on moving on. Not feeling well at all. Thankfully tomorrow is Saturday. Taking off Sunday to recover. Good night, lovey.
    I texted Ray and told him I was still under the weather and would take Sunday off. Apologizing profusely for being unable to work, I wrote I’d definitely be at work on Monday, and hoped he understood. I still needed my jobs at Duration until I found another one.
    I opened up the most recent of Matt’s texts.
    Matt: I don’t know what to write to make this better. I miss you desperately. I couldn’t sleep last night not knowing where you were. Not having you next to me. What can I do to fix this? I’ve always told you you’re mine. I never pretended more than I felt. I did use you for information because of my long term loyalty to Brady, the boys and Pentagon. But I’d never planned to hurt you. I didn’t know how to tell you the truth, but I never planned to walk away from us. I’d thought I could just keep building our love and trust before I’d let you know the truth. I was tormented by the lie, but it was easy to push down the guilt every time I looked at your beautiful face or made love to your perfect body. I love you. I will always love you. Please forgive me and come back to me.
    My heart beat erratically and I felt sick to my stomach, wishing I wasn’t so weak as to read it. I should’ve erased the text before opening. I selected the rest of the texts and pressed the delete button. In one fell swoop, I erased all the words I truly wanted to read, but couldn’t allow myself to suffer any more. Opening my account settings, I selected Matt’s number to block.
    I retrieved the tablet he gifted me several months ago. I wanted to compose an email to all of my contacts about my job search. I opened up my email and ignored the messages in my inbox. I went straight to compose a message, opened up my contacts list and attached all my friends on the email, excluding Chelsea, Carson and all of my family members. I attached my most recent resume from the online storage drive. I read and reread my message, asking my friends to inform me about a job around any major city and requested my resume be forwarded along to others not on my list. I wasn’t interested in signing on to any of my social media sites. More people could’ve been targeted by sending a status update, but the potential for information to reach my closest loved ones was too great. I needed time to let this decision sink in before I explained myself to everyone.
    I felt drowsy again. It was reminiscent of the depression I suffered upon the breakup with Ben. But felt worse because the exhaustion was all consuming, my joints and muscles ached, and my head hurt. There was no energy to do a before bed routine. All I could think of was pulling the covers over my head and sleeping until morning. My brain wouldn’t turn off and my thoughts drifted to me