not?â
Charlie motioned to Sam, the Italian barmaid, and she picked up the shot glass and filled it with Jack Danielâs.
âYou and Julie doing good, Jackie?â
âSure,â Jack said. âPretty good, anyway.â
âWedding bells?â
âNah, not yet, Charlie. You know how it is. Iâm already zero for one on that score. âSides, I havenât known her long enough.â
âShe living with you now?â
âPart-time,â Jack said. âSheâs keeping her own apartment until . . . you know, weâre sure.â
âKnow what you mean,â Charlie said. âHey, you gonna bring your son up to the Brentwood League this year?â
âI donât know,â Jack said. âHeâs got so many things going already. Plays guitar in his rock group, and heâs taking AP classes.â
What he didnât say was that Kevin had been rebellious lately. Just a couple of weeks ago, heâd lied about going to the library, and stayed out late, behavior which sent Julie into a panic. Jack had done much the same kinds of things as a kid, so he wasnât that worried. Not yet, anyway.
âYeah, sure,â Charlie said. âBut you gotta get the kid outdoors a little. Weâre talking baseball, the greatest sport of all time.â
âIâm a little busy right now, Charlie. I donât know if I can coach.â
âWho says you gotta? Iâm up there. Kev can play on my team. The mighty Brentwood Dodgers.â
Charlie assumed a catcherâs pose, and Jack laughed and punched him in the arm.
âAll right. Maybe. Whenâs sign-up?â
âSaturday at eleven,â Charlie said. âBring him up. I remember he can really pound the ball.â
âYeah, no doubt about it. Heâs got a good eye and real good bat speed. Iâll talk to him about it.â
Charlie smiled happily and nodded his head.
âMan,â Jack said. âThe way you are . . . you shoulda had kids, Charlie.â
Charlie sighed and shook his head.
âTried, man. Wasnât in the cards. Tried the normal way, and then we did the in vitro thing. Now lemme tell you, Jackie, thatâs a lot of fun. You go into some little room and they got porno DVDs in there and some lesbian mags, and you jerk off into a cup, and have to come out into the hallway afterward carrying the fucking thing and you run into all these other cats who are also carrying their cups around. Oh, man, itâs Loser Land.â
Charlie limped around with an imaginary cup in his hand as Jack smiled sympathetically.
âAnd after all that, and the ten grand it costs you, the shit doesnât even work. Itâs 12 percent or something. We did it three times, too . . . and that was enough âcause not only did I not have the kid, but I lost my wife. You try fucking on schedule for two and a half years . . . giving her injections at night, waking up at three A.M. to crying jags. No, man, that was the end for me. But itâs okay. This way I get to coach the kids when theyâre sweet and young. Later, when they become car thieves and teenage crackheads, I donât have to be involved.â
âIâm sorry, Charlie. That must have been rough.â
âYeah,â Charlie said. âIt sucked. But thatâs long ago and far away, my friend. Look at that ocean, listen to that surf. Thatâs what weâre living for nowadays. Let the past go, Jackie. Thatâs what you gotta learn.â
Jack looked at him and smiled.
âGet out there with your kid,â Charlie said. ââCause in a few years heâll have a girlfriend, and then itâll be bye-bye, Daddy.â
âI hear you, Charlie,â Jack said. âThanks for the drink. See you tomorrow, coach.â
Charlie smiled and hugged Jack and Jack felt a bolt of affection for him. Something surprising and tender that he had rarely felt for his own dad.
He was