liking!â Mum replies, patting my hand. âI still think I shouldâve taken you to the nearest hospital to get you checked over. I know youâve had your funny moments before, but this felt different.â
âThe lady in the café said that wouldâve been two hoursâ drive away, though,â I remind her.
âHmm. Well, hopefully sheâs right, and youâre just low on iron.â
As I came round yesterday, Iâd heard the elderly café waitress tell Mum that both her granddaughters had taken âturnsâ like this. âSome girls can be prone to it at this age. Anaemia, that is. They grow so fast, you see, and this young lass of yours is certainly big.â
Iâm âbigâ. Urgh. I think everyone thought Iâd groaned because I was in pain, but it was the awfulness of that description that hurt me most.
And then things got worse; I was staring up at Mum, the waitress and two inquisitive dogs ⦠but where was the bird-eyed boy? All of a sudden, it dawned on me that my head was in his
lap
, and I scrabbled to my feet quicker than the time Shaniya told me a giant spider had dropped from the ceiling on to my shoulder. (It was a small leaf. Shaniyaâs idea of a joke; well, it got a big laugh from everyone, except me, with my famous âsense-of-humour failureâ as Shaniya calls it.)
âIâll be fine. Iâll google it, and find out what foods I should be eating,â I assure Mum.
âWell, you wonât be able to do THAT till we get the engineer out to fix our internet connection. And Iâm not sure how dependable the electrics are ⦠someoneâs coming to look at those soon, as well as the roofer and builder and plumberâ¦â Mumâs voice trails off as she pulls her mobile out of her back pocket and checks her list of whos, whats and whens thatâll make the Shiny New Project start to take shape.
While sheâs momentarily frowning at her phone, I take a minute to gaze around at the grounds. When we arrived yesterday, Mum drove us â in drizzle â through tall, rusted, wedged-open gates, up the driveway, past the grand main entrance and on round to the back door, i.e., the servantsâ entrance. The drizzle fuzzed up our view, and I was feeling too fuzzed-up inside to be curious. As for Mum, as soon as she saw the removal van already parked up and waiting for us, that was all she could focus on.
âHmm ⦠Iâll be back in a sec, Ellis,â Mum says absent- mindedly. âI just want to see if I can get a signal from anywhere upstairs.â
As she turns to go, in the corner of my eye I see the faintest flash of light glimmer, coming from the direction of the garden. I give an involuntary shiver.
âFeeling funny again, babes?â Mum asks, pausing when she spots that tiny movement of mine, the way mothers do.
And as her daughter, Iâm pretty sure sheâs worried that my âturnâ had nothing to do with iron or lack of it and everything to do with my âwavesâ getting worse.
âIâm just a bit cold,â I say quickly. I guess the glimmer mustâve been a weak gleam of sunshine glinting off something.
âCome on inside, then,â says Mum, ushering me to follow her.
âIn a minute,â I tell her. To be honest, I suddenly donât feel like doing every little thing Mum says. I did the big stuff, like letting her move us here, didnât I? That seems like plenty.
Mum frowns, but leaves me to myself. Maybe sheâs hoping that the healthy Highland air, the bracing breeze of it, will whip away any traces of anxiety. Same as maybe sheâs hoping Iâll take one look at all the space â the endless space â we have here compared to our gardenless third-floor flat on our busy street in London and fall in love with Wilderwood as much as
sheâs
fallen in love with RJ.
Itâs not going to happen, of course.