is causing hallucinations.
When my eyes open, Quincrux stands motionless, looking at me. The images continue to come, like ghosts overlaid on top of the visible world. Ox. Booth. Anderson. A phantom image of Jack hovers over Quincrux, superimposed and insubstantial.
I close my eyes again, and this time I push back with all my might. I try to think of something hard and unbreakable.
A bright blue jawbreaker.
I imagine teeth trying to crunch it, to tap its sweetness. But itâs diamond-hard, and the teeth scrape and then crumble away.
I open my eyes and see Quincruxâs eyes widen, just a little. Not enough for anyone else to notice, but I see. I see him. And he saw me. More than Iâve ever let anyone see.
Booth says, âMr. Quincrux is from the Department of Health and Human Services. Sorry, Shreve, but heâs allowed to interview all wards of the state. Itâs law.â Booth gives me a smile, and the kicker is heâs not being smart or smarmy or snide with it. Heâs just smiling at me because, I donât know, heâs happy.
Jack looks at me, eyes wide, and nods in a way thatâs part acceptance, part thanks. He smiles, too, and this time his smiling doesnât seem to take an effort.
âItâs okay, Shreve. Iâll be all right.â
Iâll be damned. The kid is reassuring me.
He pulls his leg from the cafeteria bench and walks, straight-backed, to where Quincrux and Booth wait. They turn and head back to Commons, Jack in tow.
FOUR
On the inside, getting what you want requires giving up something you value. I guess thatâs the same as the outside, but I canât remember exactly. âOx, I need to get into your room. Youâve got to get me in.â
âWhy?â
âBecause if theyâre gonna question Jack, Iâve got to hear.â
âNah. Itâs almost time for English. Mr. Allenby will be pissed if weâre not there. Demerits. And I donât want to work the kitchen again this month.â
On the inside, like the outside, you can do what you can get away with, but eventually someone will make you pay.
âListen. Itâs weird, son. That Mr. Quincrux is ⦠heâs different. He made me ⦠I donât know⦠feel weird.
â âHe turn you on or something?â
For a split second, I imagine punching Ox right in his fat mouth. But the anger goes away quick enough, replaced by the urge to continue breathingâwhich I wouldnât be doing if I punched him in the face.
And my teachers say Iâve got poor impulse control.
âNo. Listen. Listen. He looked at me and read my mind. He just picked my history right out of my head. Until I stopped him.â
âThat right?â Ox picks up his tray, waves at Reasoner and the boys, and heads toward the slop bin. Not much slop left on his tray.
âDammit, Ox. Listen to me. If they question Jack in our cell, I need to be able to listen.â
âNah. Mr. Allenbyâll give me demerits.â
âHeâs got twelve fingers, man.â It just pops right out there, without me even thinking. Itâs like my mouth is disconnected from my brain. It doesnât even make any sense. What does that have to do with anything?
So much for impulse control.
âThe dude in the suit?â
I pause. Iâve said it, and thereâs no way to take it back.
âNo. Jack. And thatâs why I think Quincrux is here to question him. I need your cell. So I can listen.â
âYou telling me the fish has twelve fingers?â
âYeah, man. Twelve fingers.â
âWow.â
Ox turns and begins shambling, not toward Commons but toward the classrooms.
âOx! Iâm not messing around here. I need in your cell.â
âNah. Mr. Allenby will be pissed.â
âTwo Blow Pops.â
âNah.â
âTwo Blow Pops. Two Heath bars.â
âTwo more Heath bars. On top of escort pay.â
âRight.
Robert Chazz Chute, Holly Pop