pulling himself together, the better to roll another joint.
Though I was stoned, I agreed to take over from Tessa while she headed out for food. Mike and Maryseâshe had eventually told me her nameâdecided to go with her. They had the decency to ask if I wanted anything, but I shook my head. I gulped some water from the tap and took up position. A few customers came and went. One or two regulars got comfortable with books they would never buy. Later, a writing group would hold its weekly meeting upstairs. And there she was again. Not just a glimpse this time, but a solidity in the open doorway, in the same floral dress. A willowy figure topped with long blond hair. Her eyes were on mine, but when I signaled for her to approach, she shook her head, so I walked towards her.
âIâve seen you before,â I said.
âYouâre Ronald,â she stated.
âHow do you know my name?â
âBen told me.â
âYou know Benjamin Turk?â
She nodded slowly. âYou mustnât trust him. He likes playing games with people.â
âIâve only met him twice.â
âYet heâs already got beneath your skinâdonât try to deny it.â
âWho are you?â
âIâm Alice.â
âHow do you know Mr. Turk?â
âServices rendered.â
âIâm not sure I follow.â
âI run errands for him sometimes. I copied those pages he gave you.â
âYou know about those?â
âYouâve already read them, I suppose?â
âOf course.â
âAnd you need to read more, meaning youâll visit him again?â
âI think so.â
She had lifted her hand and was running the tips of her fingers down my cheek, as if human contact was something new and strange. I leaned back a little, but she took a step forward and pressed her lips against mine, kissing me, her eyes squeezed shut. When she opened them again, I sensed a vast lake of sadness behind them. Tears were forming as she turned and fled down the street. I stood like a statue, shocked to my very core, wondering if I should go after her, but one of the loiterers had decided to break the habit of a lifetime and pay for the book in his hands, so I shrugged off the incident and headed back to the till, not in the least surprised to find that the book being purchased was the copy of Heart of Darkness Iâd taken with me to the cous-cous restaurant â¦
It was almost eleven by the time I found myself standing outside Benjamin Turkâs building. I stared up towards the top floor. A few lights were burning, but I couldnât be sure which rooms were his. I pushed open the heavy door and began to climb the stairs. I could smell the aftermath of various dinners, and hear conversationsâmostly, I guessed, from TV sets. There was a dog behind one door, scratching and complaining softly. Having reached the top floor, and while pausing to catch my breath, I saw a note pinned to Turkâs door.
Still out. Come in.
I tried the door. It was unlocked. The overhead light was on in the hallway, but as with most Parisian lighting it seemed woefully underpowered. I called out but received no reply. There was something lying on the floor a few yards into the apartmentâfurther sheets of manuscript, again photocopied. I lifted them and carried them into the living room, where I settled on the same chair as before. A fresh decanter of wine had been laid out, alongside two crystal glasses.
âIn for a centime,â I muttered to myself, pouring some. Then, having rolled up my shirt-sleeves, I began to read.
The two extracts did not follow on from their predecessors. They were from deeper into both books. I soon saw why Turk had chosen them, howeverâboth recounted very similar incidents, vicious attacks on women whose bodies were for sale. In The Travelling Companion , it was the courtesan of the title who was brutalized by an unnamed stranger