you a Princess Leia costume online. I was going to surprise you.â
I do my best to crack a smile as I keep my eyes focused on Drew. âI told you I want to be Luke.â
Simon tucks the rest of his cheese and guava jam (his mom has it shipped from Brazil) sandwich into his bag. âAll right. If it means that much to you, fine.â
âFine what? I can be Luke?â
âFine, we can go to the fall festival.â
âYouâll go?â I ask excitedly. I suddenly see myself making the grand entrance, complete with new eyebrows and physique-shrinking dress. âThank you,â I say.
âOn one condition,â he says, taking off his glasses and cleaning them with his napkin. âI get to be Luke.â
Thatâs the thing about Simon: He always knows the perfect thing to say.
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Lucy is beside herself when I tell her that Simon and I are going to the dance. And then she tells me the supposed good news: Dad, not Mom, is taking us shopping for our dresses.
This does not make me happy.
Not that I donât love my dad, but my relationship with him has always been a bit, well, stiff. The problem is that Iâve always had the feeling that heâs embarrassed about the way I look. Heâs never come right out and said it or anything, but there are subtle things that Iâve noticed over the years. Like when he opens the kitchen cupboard and canât find the cookies or something, heâll always ask me (in an accusatory sort of way) if I know where âthey went.â The âhey, fatsoâ is implied.
And heâs always pointing out the benefits of exercise when he thinks Iâm being a slug, like when Iâm watching TV. Which is really pretty nervy considering my dad, with his double chin and big belly, is not exactly an Adonis. He oversees all the Lucky Lou restaurants on the East Coast, which has him eating tons of hotel food and the burgers Lucky Lou is known for, not exactly a great job to have if you love food, particularly greasy food. And my dad loves food even more than I do. He was downright fat as a kid, and even though he lost a ton of weight a million years ago, these days heâs not exactly thin enough or fit enough to be doling out advice. And in my defense, Iâm not fat. At least, not
that
fat. But he doesnât see it that way.
Naturally, he never, ever asks Lucy if she masterminded the cookieâs escape or if she finished off the container of ice cream or if she agreed that Jennifer Love Hewitt probably works out. Fortunately, my dad is hardly ever home. Which is good, since my mom has never once suggested that I had seen the cookies hop on the last train out of town.
Still, despite my apprehension, on the morning of our father-daughter bonding day, I arrive downstairs dressed and determined to be cheerful. Lucy is sitting at the table reading the newspaper and Dad is at the stove stirring a giant batch of scrambled eggs with cheese. The fact that Mom has gone grocery shopping at nine in the morning and is not there is extremely suspicious. I must say, this whole father-daughter-shopping-for-fall-festival-dresses has her stamp all over it. Every now and then my mom decides weâre in desperate need of some father-daughter bonding time, and realizing that both Lucy and I would prefer to be with her, she conjures up some excuse, creating a situation where itâs either my dad or nothing at all.
âWhat is that thing?â my dad asks, motioning toward my diorama, which happens to be in the center of the table, with his spatula. Even though Iâve been working on my diorama almost nonstop for two months, it figures that this is the first time heâs