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might even have gone off on it somewhere. As for the
     wallet, he’s probably just carrying cash.
    I find the bathroom, next. Nothing much to report here, other than the fact that Ben doesn’t appear to own any towels at all,
     which seems bizarre. I step back out into the main room. The bedroom must be through the closed pair of French double doors.
     I walk toward them, the cat following, pressing close as a shadow. Just for a moment, I hesitate.
    The cat squawks at me again as if to ask: what are you waiting for? I take another long slug of wine. Deep breath. Push open
     the doors. Another breath. Open my eyes. Empty bed. Empty room. No one here. Breathe out.
    OK. I mean, I didn’t really think I was going to find anything like that. That’s not Ben. Ben’s sorted; I’m the fuck-up. But
     when it’s happened to you once—
    I drain the dregs from my glass, then go through the cupboards in the bedroom. Not much by way of clues except that most of
     my brother’s clothes seem to come from places called Acne (why would you wear clothes named after a skin condition?) and A.P.C.
    Back out in the main room I pour the remainder of the bottle into the glass and neck it back. Drift over to the desk by the largewindows, which look down onto the courtyard. There’s nothing on the desk beyond a ratty-looking pen. No laptop. Ben seemed surgically attached to it when he took me for lunch that time, getting it out and typing something while we waited for our order. I suppose he must have it with him, wherever he is.
    All at once I have the definite feeling that I’m not alone, that I’m being watched. A prickle down the back of my neck. I
     spin around. No one there except the cat, which is sitting on the kitchen counter. Perhaps that’s all it was.
    The cat gazes at me for a few moments, then turns its head on one side like it’s asking a question. It’s the first time I’ve
     seen it sit still like this. Then it raises a paw to its mouth and licks. This is when I notice that both the paw and the
     white ruff at its throat are smeared with blood.

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    I’ve gone cold. What the—
    I reach out to the cat to try to get a closer look, but it slinks out from under my hand. Maybe it’s just caught a mouse or
     something? One of the families I fostered with had a cat, Suki. Even though she was small she could take down a whole pigeon:
     she came back once covered in blood like something out of a horror film and my foster parent Karen found the headless body
     later that morning. I’m sure there’s some small dead creature lying around the apartment, just waiting for me to step on it.
     Or maybe it killed something out there in the courtyard—the windows are open a crack, which must be how it gets in and out
     of this place, walking along the guttering or something.
    Still. It gave me a bit of a jolt. When I saw it for a moment I thought—
    No. I’m just tired. I should try and get some sleep.
    Ben will turn up in the morning, explain where he’s been, I’ll tell him he’s a dick for leaving me to basically break in and
     it’ll be like old times, the old old times, before he went to live with his shiny rich new family and got a whole new way of speaking and perspective on the
     world and I got bounced around the care system until I was old enough to fend for myself. I’m sure he’s fine. Bad stuff doesn’t
     happen to Ben. He’s the lucky one.
    I shrug off my jacket, throw it onto the sofa. I should probably take a shower—I’m pretty sure I stink. A bit of B.O. but mainly of vinegar: you can’t work at the Copacabana and not reek of the stuff, it’s what we use to sluice the bar down after every shift.But I’m too tired to wash. I think Ben might have mentioned something about a camp bed, but I don’t see any sign of one. So I take a throw from the sofa and lie down in the bedroom on top of