they could hire a professional staff, as well. Now, the entire project might be wiped out, or reduced to a catch-as-catch-can enterprise that limped along in second-rate facilities.
She ought to be furious with Mark, who she knew sided with the corporation. Instead, she kept wishing this awful displacement had waited a few more weeks or months so she could go on enjoying the comfort of his arms.
What was wrong with her?
Youâve received two severe blows in the space of an afternoon. No wonder youâre reeling.
Ah, that was the Dr. Forrest side of her brain kicking in. But reeling or not, it didnât explain the way sheâd reacted to Mark.
Sheâd felt a strong urge to skip out on their duties and do much more than kiss him. To pull off his tie, and his jacket, and the rest of his clothesânot in public of course, butâ¦
âSam? I understand why youâre distracted but Iâm getting a little worried.â The subject of her fantasy stopped pacing along the sand and regarded her with dark-eyed tenderness.
Sam wriggled as the rock dug into her bottom. âBecause Iâm not erupting like a volcano?â
âThat would be a more typical reaction, yes.â
âI canât believe theyâre doing this to people in need. Itâs cruel.â
âItâs business,â Mark replied. âThe hospital has a core mission, and your project isnât part of it.â
âThatâs where we disagreeâin spades.â There it was, a trace of irritation. Sam did her best to fan it into full-blown righteous anger. âYou have to see how important counseling is.â
âYes, of course, butââ
âKeep on compromising your values, and one day you wonât have a soul left to call your own.â
âOh, really?â he countered. âYou should try compromising more often. You might actually accomplish something instead of spinning your wheels.â
âThatâs what you think Iâm doing? Spinning my wheels?â
âGo ahead and pick an argument.â He seemed almost pleased. âI prefer that to seeing you defeated. Go on, Sam. Call me names if it makes you happy.â
Did he have to look so rumpled and obliging? Mark Rayburn, guiding spirit of the medical center, everyoneâs favorite go-to guy. The enemy. Yet she still failed to summon any significant fury.
âThis is not one of my favorite days,â Sam muttered. âI wish Iâd checked my horoscope before I got out of bed this morning.â
His chuckle reverberated. âI doubt that would have helped. But take the afternoon off. Youâve got a lot to think about.â
âI never take the afternoon off.â
âWhat were you planning to do thatâs so important?â
She tried to remember. Paperwork. The Christmas fundraiser. Oh, heavens. Was she even going to have a place to hold it? âHow soon are they kicking us out?â
âWe didnât discuss a deadline,â Mark said. âIâm sure I can hold off until after the first of the year, if you like.â
âYes. For one thing, I need to break this to our volunteers.â And find somewhere to stow the computers and furniture theyâd acquired. Samanthaâs brain whirred. âI guess I will go home for an hour or so. I can think better uninterrupted.â
They recrossed the footbridge in silence. Every now and then, a flicker of indignation crossed her mental horizonâdid he have to break the news to her when she was already down and out?âbut she had to acknowledge that delaying wouldnât have made things easier.
Sam hated seeing the issue from Markâs perspective. It made her so grumpy, she barely mumbled a farewell when they reached the edge of the hospital complex, and strodeoff without a backward glance. Nevertheless, she sensed the moment when he stopped watching her and turned onto his own path.
She stemmed an impulse
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