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    Once. But I would never do anything like that.
    Then she left and I was offered lunch. I wasn’t particularly hungry but thought it would be a good idea to eat anyway. All part of the show.
    The day dragged on, and near the end of it Dr. West returned. I sat at a table in the common area, as plain and impersonal as any hospital waiting room but with the addition of small round tables peppered with chairs. Two kids who looked to be around Joseph’s age were playing checkers. I was drawing on construction paper with crayons. It wasn’t my proudest moment.
    “Hi, Mara,” Dr. West said, leaning over to see my picture.
    “Hi, Dr. West,” I said. I smiled big and put down my crayon, just for her.
    “How are you feeling?”
    “Kind of nervous,” I said sheepishly. “I really miss being home.” I nudged the picture I was drawing just slightly—a flowering tree. She would read something into it—therapists read something into everything—and normal people love trees.
    She nodded. “I understand.”
    I widened my eyes. “Do you think I’ll get to go home?”
    “Of course, Mara.”
    “Today, I mean.”
    “Oh. Well.” Her brow furrowed. “I don’t know yet, to be honest.”
    “Is it even possible?” My innocent-kid voice was driving me insane. I’d used it more in the past day than I had in the past five years.
    “Well, there are a few possibilities,” she said. “You could stay here for further treatment, or possibly transfer to another inpatient facility. Or your parents could decide that a residential treatment center would be the best place for you, since you’re a teenager—most of them have secondary educational programs that would allow you to spend some time on coursework as you’re working in group and experiential therapies.”
    Residential. Not ideal.
    “Or an outpatient program could be the best thing—”
    “Outpatient?” Tell me more.
    “There are day programs for teens who are going through difficult things, just like you.”
    Doubtful.
    “You work mostly with counselors and your peers in group therapy and in experiential therapies like art and music—with a bit of time devoted to schoolwork, but the focus is definitely on therapy. And at the end of the day, you go home.”
    Not so terrible. At least now I knew what to hope for.
    “Or, your parents might decide not to do anything but therapy. We’ll make our recommendation, but ultimately, it’s up to them. Your mother should be stopping by soon, actually,” she said, glancing at the elevators. “Why don’t you keep drawing—what a lovely picture!—and then we’ll speak again after I talk with her?”
    I nodded and smiled. Smiling was important.
    Dr. West left, then, and I was still attempting to make the falsely cheerful picture even more falsely cheerful when I was startled by a tap on my shoulder.
    I half-turned in the plastic chair. A young girl, maybe ten or eleven, with long, unbrushed dirty blond hair stood shyly with her thumb in her mouth. She wore a white T-shirt that was too big for her over a blue skirt with ruffles to match her blue socks. She passed me a folded piece of paper with her free hand.
    Sketchbook paper. My fingers identified the texture immediately, and my heartbeat quickened as I unfolded it, revealing the picture I gave Noah, of Noah, weeks ago at Croyden. And on the back were just three words, but they were the most beautiful words in the English language:
    I believe you.
    They were written in Noah’s handwriting, and my heart turned over as I looked behind me, hoping by some miracle to see his face.
    But there was no one here that didn’t belong.
    “Where did you get this?” I asked the girl.
    She looked down at the linoleum floor and blushed. “The pretty boy gave it to me.”
    A smile formed on my lips. “Where is he?”
    She pointed down the hallway. I stood, leaving the bullshit tree and my sketch on the table, and looked around calmly even though I wanted to run. One of the