penis. She massaged him
expertly until she felt him grow erect. Roy lay Melissa on her back
slipped her nightie off of her, revealing two perfect dark nipples.
He took one gently between his mouth. As he squeezed and sucked on
her breasts Melissa felt herself getting aroused and let out a tiny
moan. She raised her body to meet his and his fingers explored her
wet folds. She was slick with want and Roy positioned himself
directly above her, the head of his penis teasing her until she cried
his name. Without warning, he plunged deep into her. Melissa
responded by wrapping her legs around his waist, pulling him deeper
into her. They rode the waves of pleasure until she felt Roy empty
his seed inside of her. The act so natural, animalistic but it made
Melissa stiffen. She knew he didn’t expect her to get pregnant
but ever since their journey into infertility she wondered if it
disappointed him every time he did. As Roy rolled onto his back
breathing deeply Melissa kissed him lightly and made her way to their
master bathroom. She pretended that everything was just fine but
something inside of her was breaking. She realized her feelings for
Roy were so confused at the moment. In the past she would have lain
beside him basking in the afterglow of their lovemaking but now she
couldn’t get away from him fast enough. The past year, the
resentment she had for him was building over his refusal to give up
the baby issue. Why couldn’t he understand that it was her
body? That it was her who got emotional every time the test was
negative after she was so convinced that she was pregnant. How all
the tests had drained her? As much as she loved Roy, that resentment
was starting to change the dynamic of their relationship. On one hand
she wanted him. She loved their life. On the other hand she felt
incredibly guilty for denying him the one thing he truly wanted. She
started to convince herself that maybe she was no good for him. That
maybe someone else who could give him all the things he wanted out of
life would be better for him. She felt like an incomplete woman. She
felt like a failure for the first time in her life. She was failing
her husband and failing their marriage. Melissa turned on the hot
water and sat in the corner of the tub. She cried to herself in the
shower until the water turned cold. He was so amazing. He deserved so
much more than her. She was ruining his life. When she dried off and
made her way back to bed Roy was already sleeping, snoring lightly.
Melissa watched him for a few moments before sliding in beside him. I
love you so much, I’m sorry, she thought to herself. It wasn’t
long before exhaustion caused her to fall into a restless slumber
beside her husband.
The next morning, Melissa awoke to a breakfast of waffles, eggs,
bacon and fruit . She was surprised because their housekeeper Ellen
was usually off from Friday afternoon until Monday morning.
“ Waffles,” Melissa declared. “My
favorite,” she said pouring a generous portion of syrup onto
her plate.
“ I didn’t know Ellen was coming in
today,” she said between bites.
“ I made them,” Roy said.
Melissa stopped the fork halfway to her mouth.
“ What?” she managed to finally
splutter.
“ Yeah, I wanted to have a relaxing weekend
with you and talk about some things,” he replied.
Melissa took a deep breath.
“ Such as,” she said softly.
“ Melissa, I was thinking...” Roy began
but then trailed off.
“ Yes,” Melissa encouraged.
“ Why don’t we pay a surrogate to carry
our baby?” Roy said peering at her intensely, gauging her
reaction.
Melissa chewed slowly, thinking about what Roy had said, her shock
evident on her face.
“ Roy,” she countered finally, “you
know that Dr. Blue said my eggs were not viable…”
“ I’m not talking about your eggs. I’m
talking about a surrogate.”
“ I don’t understand…”
Melissa trailed off.
“ Essentially it would be my child, our
child, but with a donor