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great. I don’t have to wait until you’re 25.”
                  He smiled and pulled her on top of him. Drifting fingers touching her back so deliciously she thought she would melt. “I have to have you tonight. Tonight, darling, tonight, I have waited so long to make love to you. It seems like an eternity since the first time I touched your hand. You are my dream, my lady.”
    A thousand thoughts tumbled into her head. She had to tell him. She wanted him more than oxygen to breath e, but…
                  “I want nothing more than to love you, but I have to tell you something first before I can get that close to you. I’ve been living in a Cinderella story with you where reality has no place, where the only light comes from dancing prisms and rainbows I’ve created.”  She hesitated then continued, “I don’t know how to say this that will make any sense and I wish I didn’t have to tell you but…I’m married.”
                  Adam eyes dropped and he said nothing for a few minutes.
    “Go on.”
    He flipped some Dylan on. She could always tell by what Dylan tune he played what he was feeling Knocking on Heaven’s Door came on while he turned the lights low.
                  “There’s something else…I have two little precious boys, 2 and 3 years old. They’re my treasures, my life. I remember what you said about children and it made me so sad but I kept blocking out everything to live in the moment and the joy of you and I. I’m separated from their father and we have thought of divorce but because of the boys have never followed through with it. I was married at 18 and had the boys soon after. I was too young, sometimes I feel I am still too young. We take turns going out and partying and we don’t confide in each other what we doing but we both take care of the boys.”
    She had n’t had a cigarette for days, but now she pulled one from the silver Egyptian case and drew in a long puff of smoke. She waited nervously for Adam to speak. Several more songs played as they both lay there in silence.
                  When he moved, he went into the kitchen and fumbled through the drawers. She saw he had something in his hand. He brought them both a Rum and Coke and threw the object into her lap. Picking up the leather checkbook, he watched her still saying nothing. Above the name of Adam Ryder was Patty Jo Ryder.
                  “I see,” was all she could murmur out.
    Were they a p air, the two of them, they had entire other lives attached to other people while they were falling in love. Now instead of the perfect love, they had a forbidden secret love that was tangled with unspoken omissions. The forever she had thought of was surely never.
                  “Where is she now?”
                  “She’s living with her parents and dating another guy. He buys her all kinds of diamonds, anything she wants. She loves that. It’s really what she is all about. Lately she’s been talking about getting back together and having a kid and my Mum is putting a lot of pressure on me to try and work things out with her. She says I owe our marriage something, at least another try.”
                  “That’s what your Mom thinks, what about you?”
                  “I don’t know. I don’t know.”
                  They sat and stared at each other through another chorus of Knocking on Heaven’s Door then Arianna slipped away with just a quick hug. They didn’t speak for several days after their unexpected revelations to each other. They had seen each other almost every day for a month; it was an agonizing few days.
                  She was restless with her never ending thoughts of him. After much analysis she believed she had never truly been in love, but this, this must be was true love is. For the first time, she felt she had invisible wings that were