armful of azaleas, sitting in her porch chair smiling. And there was Lyn baking biscuits, and carrying a stack of towels, and gazing out the kitchen window. But mainly the Polaroids were of Bo. Willa looked up from them and out into the night again, willing headlights to appear.
She hadnât waited up for someone to come home since her daughter was a teenager, and she felt out of practice. And a little ridiculous. First of all, waiting for her daughter hadnât ever kept her out of trouble, nor had it forged the meaningful, long-term relationship Willa had always assumed sheâd enjoy with her offspring. Secondly, and more to the present point, her granddaughter was twenty-five and therefore didnât have a curfew. But she was a young, uncertain twenty-five, spending time in a place she didnât understand, and Willa felt apprehensive. Jiminy and Bo had been thick as thieves lately, but they generally called it a night at a decent hour. It was now nearly eleven. What could they be doing?
She dialed Lyn, who answered the phone sounding surprised.
âLyn, itâs Willa. Have you heard from Bo?â
âNo, maâam. Whatâs the matter? Whatâs happened?â
Willa felt guilty for introducing that note of panic into Lynâs night. But at least she wouldnât be the only one worrying now.
âNothing, itâs just Jiminyâs not back yet and itâs getting late. You donât know where they went?â
âBoâs staying at his friendâs this summer, not with me. And heâs grown now, so I donât ask too many questions.â
Willa knew this was a reasonable position, but still, it angered her.
Lyn waited for Willa to say something more. She could feel the tension on the line; could sense that she was being blamed for Jiminyâs whereabouts. And though she liked that odd little girl just fine, there was only one Jiminy sheâd ever wanted to be responsible for, and that Jiminy had been taken from her. She didnât have the energy for another, even if she was Willaâs granddaughter.
She heard Willa suck her breath in between her teeth. It sounded chilly and impersonal, the whistle of an ill wind. When she spoke again, her voice was tight and controlled.
âBoâs not into any bad news now, is he?â
There was none of the loose warmth that Willaâs vowels normally slid around inâthey seemed mired in something cold and congealed.
Lyn took a moment to reply. Was Bo into any bad news? Of his own accord? More than the everyday bad news he had to swallow and shoulder and wade through and wear down? Nothing more than that. No, Bo wasnât into any bad news. Not the kind Willa was intimating. Lyn kept her calm.
âNo, maâam, he sure isnât. Heâs studying for the imp-cats, you know.â
âThe MCATs,â Willa corrected testily.
Willa knew Lyn knew all about the MCATs. Knew she wasnât actually correcting her, but merely pointing out the slight speech impediment that crept into Lynâs pronunciations when she got agitated. Which was rareâLyn was usually too disengaged to get at all riled, so her speech stayed steady. Willa felt cruel for having caused the distress, and petty for mocking its consequences.
âYes, maâam. Imp-cats. M . . . CATs,â Lyn said.
âI just didnât expect them to spend so much time together,â Willa continued.
She was trying to explain, but was only making it worse.
âMmm-huhâ was the reply.
âWell, Iâm sure sheâll be back soon. Will we be seeing you Thursday?â
âMmm-huh.â
Willa walked herself around the kitchen to try and straighten herself out. Sheâd offended Lyn, she knew, and sheâd confused herself even further. What could she do to make it up? Maybe a yellowcake. Lyn always loved yellowcake.
Sheâd just cracked an egg and shaken away the unpleasant memory of cracking a fertilized
Michael Patrick MacDonald