trying to tell me something, and it just makes me want to leave and go work out.
Especially after what happened with Bonnie. It was ⦠not good.
I should have known what was coming. What an idiot.
I liked her, in the public eye.
I pursued her, in the public eye.
The whole thing was under some kind of publicity domeâevery night out recorded and tweeted about and blah blah blah.
So, of course, the breakup would be public. Of course, sheâd leak my voice mails to TMZ.
But the thing is that I thought it was real.
I really liked her so I thought she really liked me. The way weâd talk about being sick of the cameras and wanting privacy. It all seemed real to me.
I kept telling my publicist, âMolly, please. Get the paparazzi off our trail. Bonnie and I want to be alone.â And she promisedâshe swore to me that sheâd stopped leaking any of our itinerary to them. Yet there they were. Photographers shouting our names anywhere we tried to go. Hiking in Laurel Canyon. Getting tacos down in Manhattan Beach. At La Parilla in Silver Lake.
So, duhâobviously Bonnie lied to me. Bonnie hadnât told her people to let up on us. Her publicist, Shane, was feeding them everything.
Anyway, ancient history.
A girl who leaks your voice mails is an a-hole. Plain and simple.
She can send me apologetic texts all she wants. She can blame it on Shane. On being drunk. Whatever.
Sheâs cut off.
*Â Â Â *Â Â Â *
âWhere are you, Tom?â Tamara asks. âYouâre fading.â
âSorry, what?â I say. âIâm just a little hungry.â
âHave you met Sabbi yet?â Tamara asks.
I shake my head.
âI got an interesting text from Rich. Apparently her people are wondering if you two might want to hang out on the cruise.â
I eye Tamara.
âAre you kidding?â
âNot in any way.â
I exhale and turn out to sea.
âHang outâ is code for a planned romanceâsomething that our publicists can use to push us onto the front pages of People and all the rags.
âRich Weller thinks Almstead would be very happy about it,â Tamara says. âAnd God knows your image would benefit. Not sure why Sabbiâs interested, frankly. Unless, gasp, she actually thinks youâre an intriguing person sheâd like to get to know.â
âNo. Absolutely not,â I say. âI canât believe youâre even asking me.â
âMost guys your age would leap at the chance to be Sabbi Ribieroâs boyfriend, even if itâs only pretend.â
âYeah, well, most guys didnât just have their heart stomped on by a teen pop princess.â
âBonnie Loo was a skank.â
âItâs Bonnie Lee,â I say.
âYou have to move on. She certainly has.â
Bonnieâs dating the lead singer of the band Creeping Phlox. Stupid name for a band. Creeping Phlox is a flower used for ground cover. I looked it up.
âI really need to eat,â I tell her.
âOkay, letâs get those two and then weâre done,â Tamara says. Sheâs pointing to two curvy girls standing right at the tip of the bow. One of themâs wearing combat boots.
Thatâs a good sign. Maybe sheâll give me something besides âOh my God, Iâm so excited to be here! This cruise is awesome!â
We head over. Cubby elbows me.
âIâll give you ten bucks you get one to say, âIâm the king of the world!ââ he says.
I laugh.
Cubby brings the camera up to his eye and rolls tape.
âHi,â I say to the girls. âExcuse me, how are you two finding the Titanic so far?â I pimp. Canât give a better setup than that â¦
One of them turns and flashes me a broad grin.
âOh my God!â she says. She elbows her friend in the ribs. âThis cruise is so amazing! I canât believe weâre getting to meet you!â
Then the other girl