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tight as she rests her head snuggled against my chest.
    “No Romeo, I need to do this on my own. I’m going to go away for a while. I’ve been thinking about it for the past month. I already knew about you and Baby. I could see the way you’d look at her. Then when you suggested that we find someone else to watch the kids, I knew. But I didn’t want to deal with it. I turned back to my old ways. Then I became pregnant with Miracle and that’s why I named her what I did. I found out she was growing inside of me and it was like a sign to stop what I was doing, but after she was born, we just weren’t connecting. Then Baby had Colt and I thought for a minute that he was yours. It killed me. I tried to get over you cheating on me, but you’ve been busy a lot with this new deal to get the club straight and I know it’s no excuse. But I turned back to sleeping with clients to get the attention you weren’t giving me.”
    I rub her arms trying to soothe her.  I know this is hard for her to admit to herself, let alone me.
    After I slept with Baby, I became obsessed with her, fuck I still am. I know LL needed me and I turned my back on her, I won’t do that now, even though my heart and my body is calling me to a woman I can’t have and shouldn’t want.  She’s my best friend’s daughter. It’s wrong but I love her.
    LL looks up at me and I don’t know what is wrong with me, I have this beautiful woman, who gave me three kids and I have let her down in so many ways. My comforting her soon leads to other places I am sure we probably shouldn’t venture to right now. But I do love her in my own way. Just not in the way I should.
    She straddles my lap and I lift her shirt over her head. Pinching her muddy rose-colored peaks, I kiss her neck softly and my name leaves her lips in a whisper. I cup her face. “I love you Laura, never forget that. I know I’m a fuck up, and I have no excuse for what I have done.”
    Her lips clamp down on mine and she bites me before smacking me.
    “I hate that I love you right now. I want to hate you. I want to hurt you, but I know I’ve made mistakes too.”
    I shove her down, her head resting at the foot of the bed and make slow sweet love to my wife, not knowing what the future holds for us.
    LL and I spend the rest of the morning laughing and crying together. I clean up the mess she made the night before and prepare to go get the kids.  We still haven’t decided what we are going to say to them. Miracle is just a baby, but Dawn and Jamie are old enough to know better.
     
    Baby
    My head is pounding, I drank way too much last night and it didn’t help matters when I got home this morning I seen Striker walking to the garage with his newest fuck buddy. Stupid jerk . God I hate him so much. Colt is screaming needing to be changed and Miracle wants her cereal. Dawn comes into the living room and offers to change Colt for me she is a great kid.
    I have all the kids in the kitchen now having their breakfast. Colt and Miracle are both in highchairs and Jamie and Dawn are having pop-tarts. Thank heavens they are easy to please. They probably see how hung-over I look and know to take it easy on me. Sunshine left early this morning, said she needed to be over at the Roadhouse to make sure the potentials cleaned up after Rebel’s bachelor party. I think she needed a break from all the noise. Grim must still be in bed, lucky duck, I wish I still were.
    Romeo comes to the door for the kids. Dawn runs over and pulls him inside asking him to sit and eat with her.  I watch him with his kids while I clean the oatmeal from Colt’s chin; he really is a good dad. I hope to have that for Colt one day.

                           

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    Striker
    Fuck, I wake up feeling stiff with a bad case of cottonmouth. Wiping my eyes, I struggle to wake up. Trying to roll out of bed I come nose to nose with…oh fuck, why did I bring this bitch home with me. Diamond is laying in my bed.