together before moving on, but Ms. Baumann moved really fast through the steps. It was hard to keep up and remember everything. Anytime anyone messed up, she noticed and told them to pay attention. Emily was standing next to Kate and Vanessa and me, and every time Ms. Baumann let us take a break, Emily would go back over the steps with us to help us remember them.
âIâve been dancing since I was four, so Iâm used to this,â she said. Iâm not sure if she was trying to make us feel better or worse, but I didnât care. I was glad to have the extra help.
When practice was over, Emily and I stopped at Smoothie King on the way home. She ordered a Gladiator. âIt has the least amount of calories of any smoothie on the menu. As a dancer, you have to watch what you eat,â she said.
âI hadnât really thought about that,â I saidand ordered a Gladiator too.
âStick with me,â said Emily in her confident way. âIâll give you the crash course on how to be a dancer.â
As we were walking home drinking our smoothies, Emily said she was really glad we both made the dance team. âIâve wanted to be friends with you for a long time, but it always seemed like you were supertight with Brynn.â
I took a long sip of my smoothie. I wasnât sure how to respond. âI am, but I can be friends with other people too,â I said.
Emily smiled. âFriends it is,â she said.
Even though Emily lives around the corner from me and weâve gone to school together our whole lives, weâve never been close. Itâs not like I never wanted to be friends with her, itâs just that Emily is pretty and popular and I never thought she wanted to be friends with me. Brynn has always said thereâs something about Emily she doesnât like. But I like her.
When I got home, Mom wanted to hear all about dance. âTell me everything!â she said like we were best friends at a sleepover.
I didnât really want to tell her everything. What I wanted to do was call Billy and tell him, so I just told Mom that Ms. Baumann is tough and that being on the dance team will be a lot of hard work.
When I called Billy, I told him most things, but the truth is, there were some things I didnât feel like telling him either. Like about my new stretchy headband or my âbig sisterâ or that I get to perform at the high school homecoming game, because I knew he wouldnât get why those things were important. The person I wanted to tell them to was Brynn. Sheâs the one I always talk to about stuff like that, but I didnât feel like I could talk to her about anything related to dance.
Things have been weird between us since tryouts. All weekend she said she was busy with her parents. Yesterday was Labor Day, so we didnât have school, and today at lunch, she grabbed a yogurt and said she was going to the library to study. Brynn NEVER goes to the library during lunch to study. When I saw her in math, I said, âHow did your studying go?â
All she said was, âHuh? Oh yeah, fine.â It was like she wasnât even sure what I was talking about, and then she barely spoke to me for the rest of the day.
It feels weird to go to bed without talking to Brynn.
9:47 P.M .
I canât go to bed without talking to Brynn. Iâm going to call her, not to talk about dance, but just to call her like I always do. Thereâs nothing weird about that.
9:50 P.M .
I just called Brynn. She didnât pick up. Or answer my text. Iâm going to try to go to sleep. Hopefully, things will get less weird very soon. Like tomorrow.
Wednesday, September 4, 5:57 P.M .
Things with Brynn are not less weird. Theyâre more weird.
Today at lunch, Brynn was in the library for the second day in a row, studying and eatingyogurt (which is starting to make me wonder if sheâs suddenly a believer in my Kim Kardashian theory and is hoping to