âAll right!â She took another calming breath. âYou were right and I was wrong. The damper was open.â She glared at him with as much of a challenge in her eyes as in her voice. âThereâare you satisfied now?â
He flashed her a dazzling smile, freely allowing the sound of victory to fill his voice. âThat wasnât really so difficult, was it?â
âYes, it was!â Her angry retort quickly turned to an awkward moment as she shifted her weight from one foot to the other. She rubbed her hand across the back of her neck and glanced at the floor. Her words were soft, her voice a whisper. âI just assumedââ
âYou assumedâ¦what? That Iâm a hopelessly ineptjerk who isnât capable of handling the most basic task?â He saw the embarrassment color her cheeks again and he immediately regretted the harshness of his words, regardless of how true they had been.
She tried to recover the upper hand. âYou have to admit that your lifestyle certainly doesnât lend itself toââ
âPerhaps my âlifestyleâ isnât what you think it is.â He clenched his jaw in an attempt to bite off his anger. âTrue, Iâve spent the past few years more or less wandering aroundâ¦â The sadness and despair that suddenly welled inside him forced an end to his comments.
He turned the word over in his mind. Lifestyle. He had no purpose in life or even any goals. Always a party to go to, but no one special with whom to share the joys or the sorrowsâ¦especially the sorrows. That was not a lifestyleâit was loneliness.
He had always envied Justin, who seemed to have everything he didnât. Even though Justin was divorced, he had family and was very close to his sister. He had a career he loved, a home and close friends. He had roots, something that was important to him. And Jessicaâshe was a very together lady. They had everything that mattered. They had what he very much wanted.
What little family Dylan started with had long ago been taken away. He was an only child. His father had deserted the family when he was ten years old. He eventually learned that his father had died five years later. His mother died within two weeks of the time he had been left literally at the altar on his wedding day. It seemed that those closest to him had deserted him. It was a lesson he had learned the hard wayâifyou allow someone into your heart or to touch your place of vulnerability you will end up being hurt. Close emotional attachments werenât for him, but he truly envied Justin and Jessica.
Dylan turned away before his moment of melancholy became obvious to Jessica. It was just the type of vulnerability he did not want to show to this woman who had already developed some very definite opinions of him. He grabbed the empty coffee mug from the kitchen counter, filled it and handed it to her. He forced an upbeat attitude to his tone. âYou never answered me about cream or sugar.â
âJust black.â She reached out to take the mug from his hand. Their fingers touched for an instant, the warmth much more than what was being generated by the coffee. Her gaze locked with his, held there as if by some force beyond her control. Her breath froze in her lungs. She finally managed to look away, but it did not still the pounding of her heart.
He carried his coffee mug to the living room, taking a swallow as he walked. He desperately wanted to smooth out the tension that permeated the air. Then an incident from his youth popped into his mind. He couldnât stop the chuckle that accompanied it.
She stared at him, her expression part curiosity and part irritation. âThis entire morning has been a disaster. Just what is it that you find so funny?â
He took another sip of his coffee and settled into a comfortable chair. âThe disaster with the fireplace reminded me of something that happened a long time