wide
mouth seemed pinched, almost sullen, and the thick
cascade of blond hair looked fake. The nose was
straight but slightly too bulbous at the end to be pretty.
Only the eyes were striking, darkly fired with anger and
resentment, a redneck rage more suited to a thinner
face. She wore an old-fashioned, high-collared lace
blouse with a black ribbon threaded through the collar
to hold a small cameo to her throat. As I looked at the
face again, the blouse seemed oddly defiant, the face
so determined not to be laughed at that it seemed sad,
too sad.
I knew the story: a nearly pretty girl, but without the
money for the right clothes or· braces or confidence, the
sort of young girl who either lurked about the fringes of
the richer, more popular girls, and was thought pushy
for her efforts, or who stood alone and avoided the
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high school crowd, and for her lonely troubles was
thought stuck-up, stuck on herself without good reason. Ah, the sad machinations of high school. As I stared at the picture, I was once again pleased that I
had missed most of those troubles. I lived in the
country and worked, and although I hadn't exactly
planned it that way, I had joined the Anny three weeks
before I was supposed to graduate. Somehow the GED
I had earned in the Army seemed cleaner than a high
school degree. Less sad, somehow.
"How long ago did she take off?" I asked Rosie, the
photograph dangling from my fingers like a slice of
dead skin.
"Ten years ago come May," she answered as calmly
as if she had said a week ago come Sunday.
"And you haven't heard from her since?" I asked.
"Not a single solitary word."
"Ten years is too long," I said, still trying not to
sound shocked. "Even a year is usually too long, but
ten years is forever."
Once again, though, Rosie acted as if she hadn't
heard me. "She went over to San Francisco one
Saturday afternoon with this boy friend of hers, and he
said she just stepped out of the car at a red light and
walked off without sayin' a word or even lookin' back.
Just walked away. That's what he said."
"Any reason to think he might have lied?"
"No reason," Rosie said. "I've known him all his
life, and his momma's a friend of mine. She's been
fixin' my hair once a week for nearly twenty years. And
Albert, he was tom up by it something terrible. He
kept lookin' for Betty Sue for years after I give up. His
momma says he still asks about her every time she sees
him."
"Did you report it to the police?" I asked.
"Well of course I did," Rosie answered angrily, her
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wrinkled eyes finding an old spark. "What kinda
mother would I be if I hadn't? You think I'd let a
seventeen-year-old girl wander around that damned
city fulla niggers and dope fiends and queers? Of course
I told the police. Half a dozen times." Then in a softer
voice, she added, "Not that they did diddly-squat about
it. I even went over there my own damned self. Twenty,
maybe thirty times. Walked up and down them hills till
I wore out my shoes, and showed pictures of her till I
wore them out. But nobody had seen her. Not a soul."
She paused again. "I just hate that damned city over
there, you know. Wish it would have another earthquake and fall right into the sea. I just hate it. I was raised Church of Christ, you understand, and I know I
ain't got no right to judge, runnin' a beer joint like I do,
but I swear if there's a Sodom and Gomorrah in this
wicked, sinful world, it's a-sittin' over there across the
bay," she said, then pointed a finger like a curse across
the hills. When she saw an amused grin on my face, she
stopped and glared down her sharp nose at me. "You
probably like it over there, don't you? You probably
think it's all right, don't you, all that crap over there?"
"You don't have to get mad at me," I answered.
"I'm sorry," she said quickly, then looked away.
"That's all right."
"No, it ain't all right, dammit. Here I am askin' a
favor of you and hollerin' at the
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