if it were to blame. All the accusations, the powerful, dramatic speeches Iâd been preparing for months rang perfectly clear in my head even now. But the moment I opened my mouth the words rolled out crippled.
Grandpa picked up the jar and drank it dry. âIâm thirsty like a rabid dog,â he said. âAnd maybe I am rabid. Maybe thatâs why I came here. Did you think of that?â
I nodded. Insane, unstable, terminally illâall these were scenarios my parents and I had considered at length.
âListen, my boy,â Grandpa said gently, and spread his palms open. âWeâre both tired. Weâll talk tomorrow.â
The newspapers on the table flapped and, zipping up my jacket, I stretched back in the chair. I really was tired. The wind had grown cold. The sun had dived behind the hills and though the sky was bright in that direction, it was indigo to the east. From our vantage point, high on the terrace, I could see the bridge, the river, and on the other side the Muslim houses with their red rooftops, the thin minaret of the mosque. On our side of the village was desolationâcrumbling stone walls, yards overgrown with thorns and dead trees. And on the chimneys of the ruined housesâlike large, unblinking eyes that watched me in the duskâdozens of stork nests.
âDoes every house have a nest?â I asked Grandpa a few days later.
âSome roofs have two.â
But why there werenât any in the Muslim hamlet he couldnât say.
The nests were still empty. Though it was time, the storks had not arrived yet. Two more weeks would pass before the first birdsâthe scouts, as Grandpa called themâspun their belated wheels in the skies over Klisura.
âWhatâs that?â I pointed toward the end of the village, where, as a grotesque counterpoint to the white minaret, stuck up an ugly black metal frame.
Grandpa groaned in disgust. âThere is the Babel Tower,â he said, âthere is the Eiffel Tower. That there is the Tower of Klisura. A world fucking wonder. If you permit.â
A few months back some genius had started building a wind turbine and then abandoned it mid-construction. And that was that.
He lit up and the plume he exhaled hung between us, changing shapes. The wind whooshed through the treetops and carried the smell of budding leaves, of wet, damp earth, which mixed with the stench of the tobacco. I cowered in my jacket. The cigarette burned red, redder in the smoke, like a living coal. The smoke drew a wing, the wing morphed into a womanâs face.
A hand shook my shoulder. âWake up, my boy. Listen. Hear!â
How long had I dozed? Night had fallen. Somewhere in the dark, behind hills I couldnât see, a bird was calling, its song melodic, mournful. And like today, another bird answered it from the Muslim hamlet, where now timid lights shone behind the curtained windows.
âItâs from across the border,â Grandpa said. âA man has died. Theyâre letting us know.â
âWho is?â I perched forward and listened to the whistling song.
âThe people of his village. Thatâs how they cross the hills. Theyâve learned to speak like birds.â
Iâm not sure how long I sat in my chair mesmerized. The song had dissolved in the night and silence had returned to the villageâcrickets cried in the yard, dogs barked, the treetops rustled.
âThis man,â I said at last, and my ugly accent startled me. What beauty, to speak unburdened like a bird. âDid you know him? Was he a good man?â
âWhat difference does it make?â Grandpa asked. âHeâs dead.â
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I woke up with thunder ringing in my ears. Sheets of rain slapped the window and the glass rattled in its frame. The whole house had come to lifeâwalls, floors, beams in the ceiling. Caught in jet lag, I listened, dozed off, came to again. Then, sharp as