he’s having,” he told her, sounding like we were at a bar and he was ordering cocktails. I clenched my jaw at the thought of how inviting that scenario still was to me. I guess you don’t ever completely beat booze, do you?
Matt didn’t seem to notice, but took a deep breath and then renewed his tired grin. “Thanks for seeing me.”
I shrugged.
“How’s your leg?” he asked.
“Fine.”
“It looked like you hurt it, is all.”
“Nothing big.”
He gave a short nod. We sat silently for a bit, until Cassie finished with his coffee and brought it to the table. He sipped it immediately and burned his lip.
“Ouch,” he muttered. “It’s hot.”
I watched him. I wanted to say Same ol’ Matt to myself, but the truth was, I didn’t know if it was or not. I struggled to remember if I’d been friendly to him in high school, or if we’d even talked .
Matt finished licking his burned lip and met my eye. His own eyes were glassy and tired and a bit sad, though it seemed he was hiding the last part as much as he could.
“I s’pose I should get straight to the point,” he said.
“Okay.”
He blew carefully on his coffee, tried it again, then set it down to cool.
I waited. His stalling was starting to irritate me.
Matt sighed. “There’s just no easy way to start,” he told me.
“Then just start.”
“Yeah,” he said.
I thought I heard a wavering in his voice, but I couldn’t be sure.
“It’s…it’s my daughter,” he said, then broke off, his eyes watering.
I didn’t know where he was going so I didn’t know how to answer.
“Hell,” he muttered. “Hell’s bells.”
I decided to help him along . “Something happened to her?”
“I hope not,” Matt said, looking away. “She’s run off. I can’t find her. I’ve looked everywhere, checked with all her friends, but she’s nowhere. Leastways, nowhere I can find her at.”
“Did you call the police?”
“Yeah,” he nodded. “I filed a runaway report. But I don’t think they really go looking for those kids, you know?”
“They don’t.”
He looked at me sharply, as if he hadn’t wanted to have his suspicions validated. “No?”
“Nuh-uh. They deal with them if they come across them, but no one goes looking. It’s not even a crime anymore to be a runaway.”
“Not a crime? Oh, great.” Matt wiped a finger across his nostrils, then on his napkin. “So she can run away and there’s nothing I can do?”
“You didn’t have this discussion with the police officer?”
“I only spoke with one on the phone.”
I sipped my coffee, not wanting to tell him that the person he talked to on the phone probably wasn’t a police officer, but a city employee who took minor reports like his over the phone. Unless things had changed since I was on the job, anyway. And given what I just read about the city budget, I doubted things had improved.
“I’ve been spending all my free time looking for her,” he said. “I’ve checked every place I could think of a hundred times. I can’t find her. I don’t know what else to do.”
I sipped again. Matt watched me and I watched him back. Finally he said, “So when I saw you at the game last night, I thought that with you being a cop, maybe you could help me.”
“I’m not a cop anymore.”
“I know. You told me last night. But then I figured that you could help me because you were. ”
“Yeah, I was. But not anymore.”
Matt didn’t respond to the challenge. He picked his own coffee up and sipped it. In the relative quiet of the coffee shop, I heard his heavy exhale. “I just don’t know how it got to this point. I don’t understand where I went wrong.”
“Do you think that she’s not a runaway? That she was abducted? ”
His eyes snapped to mine. “Oh, no. God, I hope not. Is that what you think?”
I shook my head. “I don’t think anything. All I know is what you’re telling me and all you’ve said is that your daughter ran away.”
“But the