with such confidence, as if she knew exactly what to do. She wasnât at all afraid of the crowds or telling people what tasks to accomplish.
âYou should be up there,â Vanora said, when Laren reached her side. âNot Nairna. Youâre the chiefâs wife.â
Larenâs cheeks flushed at the admonition. But what could she do? Standing in front of large crowds terrified her. She felt every flaw was magnified in their eyes.
âThey donât respect you,â Vanora continued. âYou hide away from them without even trying.â The matron took her hand, leading her forwards. âI donât mean to hurt your feelings, a charaid , but if youâre wanting to help, you need to stop being so shy and take the role that belongs to you.â
Laren knew Vanora was right, but she couldnât change her fears any more than she could change her nervous heartbeat from racing inside her chest. Her skin grew cold, goose bumps rising up as nerves rippled within her stomach. She wished she could be like Nairna, instead of tongue-tied and not knowing what to say.
As the crowd dispersed, Laren watched Alex and his brothers. She saw the bandage wrapped around her husbandâs forearm, but he continued to lift away the fallen timbers, with little care for his injury.
His muscles strained as he worked and Laren remembered what it was like to touch his bare skin, the hardened flesh merging into soft. She knew his body well, the contrast between the ridges of his stomach and muscular back.
A shadow fell across her mood, for it had been such a long time since they had touched one another intimately. Last night, when heâd learned of her injury, heâd been so angry. Her feelings were bruised, for not once had he said that he was glad she was all right. His fury was palpable,and though she knew he was angry that sheâd been hurt, it almost felt as if he were blaming her for the injury. Then this morn, heâd demanded that she stay inside, as though she were incapable of doing anything to help.
But I can do something, she thought. She would start making more glass today and eventually try to sell it. Somehow.
âMama, arenât we going to help Da?â Mairin asked, her face impatient.
âAye. But stay here.â She couldnât simply go up to the ruined keep and begin shovelling ash. Alex would see them and get angry. For this, she needed Nairnaâs help.
She asked Vanora, âWill you watch over the girls for a moment?â The matron agreed and Laren kept to the outskirts of the crowd, avoiding Alex as she drew closer to Nairna. Bramâs wife would know how to get the ash without making anyone suspicious.
âI need your help,â she confessed, when she reached Nairnaâs side. âI want the ash thatâs left over, if you can spare it.â She met her sister-in-lawâs gaze with an unspoken reminder about the glass. âI need the beechwood ashes in particular,â Laren continued. âItâs necessary forâ¦the work that I do. My girls can help to gather it.â
Nairnaâs green eyes turned shrewd. âYouâll need more help than that. Iâll send Dougal, and heâll get the other men to help shovel it into a cart. The men need the space cleared for the new keep anyhow. Leave it to me.â
Laren voiced her thanks and started to walk back to the girls. Sheâd nearly reached the gate when a hand caught her arm.
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âWhat are you doing here?â Alex demanded. He couldnât believe that Laren was here, not when sheâd been wounded.Her face was pale and he pulled her over to a small pile of stones, forcing her to sit. âYou need to rest.â
Although heâd thrown himself into the physical labor of rebuilding, ever since heâd left Larenâs side heâd replayed the vision of the arrow piercing her skin. Even now her face held the pain, and guilt plagued him that he
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