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There's not many other choices….” He trails off and stares at me. I look back at him seeing the exact moment when realization hits him. He shakes his head and his face pales. "You're not pregnant. You can't be pregnant!"
    "Well, tell that to the three pregnancy tests I took this afternoon, because they obviously missed the memo." I snap at him. Seriously? Because Matthew Wilson can just say no, and the situation will change? I wish I had that power.
    "But, how? You're on birth control. Isn't pregnancy exactly what that is supposed to prevent?" He sounds genuinely confused, and I can't help but roll my eyes at him. He doesn't notice, because he's staring at my stomach in horror.
    "The pill isn't 100% effective Matt. Come on, you know this."
    He makes an exasperated noise in his throat, "I understand that Lyric. Are you sure you took it the way you're supposed to? You didn't miss any, or forget to refill them?" He's staring at me accusingly now, like I got pregnant on purpose, just to mess up his life.
    "Right Matt, because I would choose to get pregnant while I'm still in school and unmarried. I would choose to stop taking my pill. It’s not something that’s easy to forget. I take it every morning.“
    “Well, clearly something happened because you’re pregnant. A baby is not something we were planning to have anytime soon. How will you finish school and take care of a baby? Are you just going to quit school to be a mom? We will have to get married before you start showing. But then everyone will know that we got married to prevent a bastard .” He growls, spitting out the last word. I flinch when he says ‘bastard’. Is that really what he thinks about our child?  
    “This is 2012, not 1912 Matthew. Unplanned and unexpected pregnancies happen all the time. We’ll deal with it. What other option do we have?” Now I’m yelling too. I knew he’d be upset, but this is just ridiculous. “What do you want me to do Matt?”
    He stares at me silently for what feels like hours, then says quietly, “You need to deal with it.”
    My heart drops to my feet. “What do you mean I need to deal with it? As in what? Have an abortion ?!?” Surely that’s not what he is suggesting. To get rid of our baby? “Tell me that’s not what you meant Matt. That having an abortion is not your idea of ‘dealing with it’.”
    Matt looks down at his feet. “Lyric, we can’t have a baby right now. It’s not the right time. That’s the only option we have.” He looks apologetic, but obviously expecting me to just go along with what he’s suggesting. Does he know me at all? I’ve got to get out of here.
    “I can’t talk to you about this anymore. I can’t even be around you.” I’m sobbing now. With all the ways I thought this would go, him telling me to get an abortion wasn’t one of them.
    Matt reaches for me, trying to pull me into his arms, but I jerk away. “Don’t touch me!” I snarl, shoving him away and leaving the bathroom. He falls backwards into the tub, and I take the opportunity to run out of the apartment. If I stay one more minute, I don’t know what I’ll do to him. I make it to the elevator, and push the down button.  
    He’s going to be here any minute and the elevator is taking too long. When I hear the door to his apartment open, I quickly decide to take the stairs instead. As the door is closing, I hear Matt yell “Damn it Lyric! Don’t leave -“ before it slams shut. I’m walking down the narrow steps as fast as I can but my low heels are not helping. As soon as I decide to take them off, the door slams open behind me and I hear Matt catching up to me.
    Breathing hard, I move faster, trying to put as much space between us as I can. As I round the next set of steps, Matt grabs my arm startling me, and I jerk my arm away from him. When I do, I hit the next step wrong and lose my balance. I try to grab the handrail but it’s too late. I start tumbling down and the last thing I hear is Matt